Wednesday, July 31, 2019

做夢

二零一九年七月三十一日,有四十四名示威者因為七月二十八日晚上在中環及上環一帶示威被捕,今日上裁判法院,最年輕的只有十六歲。其中一對情侶當時正在幫助一跌倒的女人,亦被拘捕並控以暴動罪。
而在一星期前,元朗一大批懷疑有黑幫背景,穿着白衣的人士,持刀及竹枝在地鐵站裏無差別打人,卻仍未有人被起訴。當晚全港市民打電話要求警員到場制止白衣人,但警察足足遲了三十九分鐘才到場。
今晚我們討論到香港現行的法治仍能保護我們嗎? 
大家都說已經崩壞了,N說「你要警察拉到人,法庭先有得審,警察無拉白衫人,法庭都無辦法彰顯法治。」
以前最多擔心被捉回去四十八小時,現在可能真係會坐監。千祈不要以為我們沒有想過。
我認識一些人輕朋友,例如來LAP做intern 的小朋友,感覺有點串,做animal shelter 其實幾辛苦,要不停執屎,佢哋有時會黑面。但其實他們十分好心地,我跟他們一直有聯絡, 當時我還未收養Rosie, 她自己都沒有想過自己會成為前線的前線,(被人以pepper spray 當面噴)我識唔止一個所謂小朋友,自己都無諗過自己會走到最前的.....
佢哋在自己instagram 都瘋狂求大人罷工,當然無乜太多大人follow佢哋個ig. 未被世界污染的年青人,雖然好似好串,總係未瞓醒咁樣,會唔準時,但心地很好。 
我諗,唯有記住,要保存一夥有希望的心,作最壞的準備,盡力,可以失望不能絕望,及記住自己有可能幫到嘅嘢,唔好因為覺得乜都做唔到而成為犬儒,及記住路很漫長,不會一天成功的。
仲有一個小妹妹 我一直翻譯新聞俾佢聽,雖然她是在港長大的少數族裔,但不懂廣東話,正在讀大學,不是會問我發生了什麼事,「我不知道昨晚又發生了事呀」。
她剛告訴我 "Tomorrow will be my second supply drop! Dropping off some clothes and medical supplies, mostly gauze and bandages" 無論佢嘅supply係有用定無用,我都感動到嘁。她告訴我,不是因為你,我不會知道這一切。
H: 係,我最怕既係今次一完,無係咩结果,會有好大反差,完全死寂
Me: just like 佔中2.0 唔使怕 一定會
W: 唔駛怕 一定會?
Ms Maoo: of course, that's what i feel. but will still keep trying, 唔一定係見到希望才做。 我覺得只係漫漫長路一部份。但世上沒有什麼是絕對不能動搖的。

Tuesday, July 30, 2019

十年

面對香港當下的局勢,所有人也好疲倦。但對我本人來說,知道這無論如何都將會是一段好長好長的抗爭,其實也是安慰 - 不要為一時的失敗而絕望。美術館的十周年慶典既盛大又溫暖。遇見一些九年來沒有見過的朋友。那晚有十一個客人住在冬話家中,在大雨聲下塌塌米地上睡覺,天氣好熱,沒有冷氣,跟大自然很接近;起床一起談天刷牙吃早餐,就是越後妻有最core的精神了。
除了以前這麼多年的義工,也有其他有名的藝術家,兒童書出版社,Art Front 的Director 等到來祝賀和參與; 當然不少得最重要的- 鉢村村民!認識了很多不同人,為什麼他們總令人感到如此受寵,感覺這些人都不是裝的,總讓我覺得自己好幸運。明明我實在是好多不足的一個人。好像現在的Art Front Director, 近年第二次見到她,她兩次都說一直都好喜歡我畫的畫。其他田島先生的美術家朋友都是很有名很上手的創作人,但都會過來跟我這個後輩談天,假如我是一個日本人,在禮節上我該是負分的。但他們總是對我好包容,很愛戴。
 
下圖中嗰舊好似屎咁嘅包,其實是在裝鰻魚呀。在日本盛夏中,每年也有這一天大家要食鰻魚的日子,話說食咗會強身健體; 但十日町竟然有人做了鰻魚型的包。有腳的屎。
由於當時講緊冬甩店先生隻新貓叫乜名,所以我就提議unagi. 佢話佢已經諗住叫佢做E'Clair, 我話唔緊要,我隻貓都好多個名。所以最後佢話咁佢隻貓可以叫做 米山. Eclair. Unagi 
佢話鍾意大自然嘅人一定會喜歡佐渡島,海好靚,樹好高大,還有好多星星。
話說有個歌手常常同我哋美術館合作的。大家都好鍾意佢把聲,同埋佢比較出名,是真正的表演者,其中一個artist assistant 好鍾意佢。
但其實 我哋條村九歲冬話妹妹個媽咪 都係唱歌的,唱歌好好聽,我都好鍾意,民歌歌手類,歌聲擁有溫柔的力量。那天冬甩店主食早餐時,好認真咁同冬話媽媽私下講,話雖然好多人鍾意另外嗰個人把聲,但我覺得你把聲真係令人感動。 好像從心底給人的祝福,就算係新潟大雪的底下都依然是閃閃發光的。 冬話媽媽好感動,說我要哭了,佢都幾易喊的。
We all feel so frustrated and exhausted in face of the miserable things that has been happening in the city we love and call home. To me, in a way, knowing that this will be a very very long fight is in a way a comfort, it's a good reminder that small failure doesn't and shouldn't mean ultimate failure, and even though it seems miserable, but there must also be awakening in many people's heart. 
I decided to go back for the museum's tenth anniversary big event last minute, it's one of the most beautiful thing that I have witnessed in the past decade, slow, gentle, and real community work, with art as a medium.
Met many old friends some whom I haven't seen for 9 years, 11 of us stayed at our beloved little towa's home, we slept under heavy rain in hot rooms without aircon, annd woke up to make breakfast and brush teeth together surrounded by nature, this is the core of what Echigo Tsumari Art Triennnial is to me.
Apart from volunteers, staffs from the past decade, many famous artist friends, picturebook publishers, the festival's founder and coordinator came, of course last but most important - the VILLAGERS!!
I wonder why they always make people feel so loved, and you can feel that they are not being polite, it made me feel so lucky always. I can causally count out so many shortcomings of myself, but they still gave me so much love and opportunity. And even famous artists came and chat with me and told me they liked my work (ok this must be just polite) and the Current Art Front Director whom i met twice in recent years, both times said she REALLY remembered me since years ago, and had always loved my work...
If I live in Japan, I think i'd score negative in manners... but they still tolerated me all this time.