Sunday, April 29, 2012

看草

連日大雨後,天稍光起來令眼睛變得敏感,在電腦前一天,耐心,就是需要很多忍耐和堅持。窗前的小植物是疲累眼睛的良藥。昨晚差不多沒有睡,可能因為喝了茶,早知喝好味道的熱奶,笨了。看草時想起梵高一生也在找心理和情緒的平衡- 內心的平靜。在精神病院住了兩個月後,他寫信給小妹妹說 I’m quite absorbed in reading the Shakespeare that Theo sent me here, where at last I’ll have the calm necessary to do a little more difficult reading. I’ve first taken the kings series, of which I’ve already read Richard II, Henry IV, Henry V and a part of Henry VI – as these dramas were the most unfamiliar to me. Have you ever read King Lear? But anyway, I think I shan’t urge you too much to read such dramatic books when I myself, returning from this reading, am always obliged to go and gaze at a blade of grass, a pine-tree branch, an ear of wheat, to calm myself. So if you want to do as artists do, gaze upon the white and red poppies with the bluish leaves, with those buds raising themselves up on stems with gracious curves. The hours of trouble and battle will assuredly come and find us without our going to look for them.
你看,我明明不應該在寫這些的,柔和的陽光照亮了房間裹一地的書,還看到淡淡的藍天。寫多一點,想吃溏心蛋,但今天是星期天,超市五時便關門。洗澡,再想想去不去今晚的攝影展。梵先生的天空顏色也挺不傳統,經常用到我最喜歡的古怪藍白綠色。厚筆觸,好正!是沒有學畫畫的人才做到的,passion and careful observation shines through,還有受日本影響的黑色邊,其實佢啲畫好適合做繪本,不是嗎?他藍天白雲的畫都不會感覺陽光充沛。可能因為他較喜歡看星空啦。我們的星空呢?好吧,不如去鄉下看星星吧。上次看到很美的星空已經是在肯雅了。聽歌
Field With Flowers Near Arles, Vincent van Gogh. 1888/cropped

火鍋

「哎吖,今晚好開心呀」怎麼辦,聽多了他們「扮我說話」,我也開始裝他們裝我了!就是說我本來肯定不是那樣子!為什麼我們都笑得像傻瓜。今晚跟這群瘋狂IR/Politics 人去裝修像八十年代的「春天」,還可以自己「撈醬」的!呵呵呵。在這彷如冬天的日子打邊爐最適合不過。「春天」該改名做「冬天」。還收到絲嘉同學曬的相,好喜歡。然後到怪叔叔家畫白兔畫(燈光很差,是關於在大樹底建了小房子的一家白兔,見到外面拿着工具的人想:「是誰來探訪我們呢」),希望學校會改變主意,不殺草地上的小白兔吧。牠們胖胖的很可愛。人類也佔了其他動物太多空間了。我聽到風在外面大叫。笑是很好的therapy,願我們都可以真摯的笑。你們說那在劍橋讀書時養熊的Lord Byron 也說‘Always laugh when you can. It is cheap medicine.’ :) 跟你搶客啊羅醫生。

Saturday, April 28, 2012

朦朧

跟田中先生和betty mama 的越南晚飯延伸到我們最喜愛的酒吧甜品大拼盤,遇上東亞研究的同學為其中一個北韓同學道別,場中的南韓朋友也來湊熱鬧,跟住大伙兒到ADC吧... 星期五晚,意想不到的無限延續。記得秋天在granta 第一次認識抽平壤煙的金同學,時間飛逝,今晚湊巧是同一班人。還有,跟剛從朝鮮回來,操京控的英國同學談了一會,發現他還不是那麼那麼的壞!說到他在WWI當空軍/間諜的爺爺,當選內羅比小姐的媽媽和Amnesty International的爸爸,完全解釋他為什麼是今天的他。佢地班人,全班都咁crazy。在大黑洞裹一整天,做了一點點工作,給老師回了電郵。當然也如常做了些海報,實在是半個他們系的人。在黑洞中跟文字掙扎與外面的世界實在差別太大了,明天還要繼續的,幸好明晚也有好活動值得期待。
還有值得提及,相中我們坐在Eagle室外的大傘子下,四周下雨,在室外不用淋濕聽到滴溚雨聲和四邊的雨點很美。啲讀政治嘅煙民。(就會聽到熟識的問題:可以咁樣generalize㗎咩)

Friday, April 27, 2012

穀雨

And above all, watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places. Those who don't believe in magic will never find it.”― Roald Dahl
唔可以再互相發放負能量+埋怨。今早未瞓醒就幫教授做海報,呵,賺零用錢真好。收到黃欣的信,看罷想到心理作用的厲害,好像paracetamol 明明無乜用,但你以為佢係勁嘢就唔會頭痛一樣,繼續覺得「唔知點寫呀」「點解要寫呀」實在無意思。想起聖誕節在翠華+中央圖書館時的對話,同樣的迷網,同樣地識得同人講,自己做唔到。然後一開始睇任何書都覺得「啊,唔得啊,識得太少」「睇一世都唔夠呀... 」昨晚在軼君廚房遇到跟我讀同一科的依珊同學,雖然她是phd但也在同樣的心理困境。真的要好好享受,不要苦著做。本來就不應那樣子嘛 : ) 極端陰晴不定,還是往河邊坐了一會。A.A.Milne 以前在劍橋也看河啊。Pooh 肯定也看。
"Sometimes, if you stand on the bottom rail of a bridge and lean over to watch the river slipping slowly away beneath you, you will suddenly know everything there is to be known." - A.A. Milne. in Winnie the Pooh 是真的。以前不喜歡小熊維尼,覺得是港女才喜歡的,哈哈,但其實寫得很好很好。唔知散步會唔會撞到pooh 呢?仲有仲有。要快啲做好,仲有好多好多嘢要玩!

Thursday, April 26, 2012

糖心蛋

雨後的糖心蛋,重回看書的日子,跟絲嘉及白爪魚到軼君家做中東菜。: ) 為什麼做中東菜,是不是因為軼君同學以前是跑中東線的戰地記者,今天還聽到她的好消息!!! 很替她開心啊。
在寧靜的晚上走路回家,遙遙看見小貓跑到車底,我走近了叫她,她便走過來躺在我身邊,看來是還未滿一歲的小小圓圓黑貓,真奇妙,她究竟聽懂我在說什麼呢?想起在瑞士京都的民宿,睡在我房的貓兒,真可愛。為什麼人們說貓冷酷,我叫牠們總會過來。

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

花園

雖然我最喜歡白色、奶黃色和粉紅色的花,但小紅花,我也很歡迎你來到我(+小黑和小刺猬)的家。流水把太陽光反映到嘆息橋畔的小小木樓梯上,在那裹逗留一整天都不會悶啊。看河水與光影起舞,聽長竿撐到水底的聲音。(呢個時侯又會聽到我問:河水有幾深啊?水底有乜野?可唔可以影張康河底嘅相俾我?但係我想要成條河嘅Cross-section喎... )
昨天在selfridges(中文是不是「自己的雪櫃」)的Pierre Herme 買了一個四月特別版的macaron。現在想起還感到很滿足的小花園 :P 是的,它名叫 Les Jardins,這個Avril Jardin secret 有玫瑰, 香草和丁香。把快樂儲起,留給未來一個月用。今早在迷糊中做了很多工作。但永遠都有更多.... :P
舊式厚玻璃反映了手上的Blackwells 袋,太不濟了。哈哈
小紅花坐在夕陽的太陽下,很美,做晚飯去。
明天要見supervisor -嘆息...請聽歌:完美孤獨

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

想聽

下雨天,倫敦。抱擁這分鐘。地下鐵車卡內只有中國人的詭異風光跟演唱會內的閃閃光。會令昨天明天也閃亮. K歌之王坐單車看不一樣的煙火。芳華絕代, 陀飛輪。長路漫漫是如何走過。絢爛如電 虛幻如霧 哀愁和仰慕 其實 人生並非虛耗。葡萄成熟時。富士山下的夕陽無限好。只是沒了你的畫面 我們回不到那天 你會不會忽然的出現。
與我常在 : ) 我滿足了。下一次的滿足將來自功課。聽著他的歌,令我有一個願望。

Sunday, April 22, 2012

下雨

這是遇見彩虹的天氣。這邊的下雨天跟香港的暴雨很不同啊,但我都喜歡,羅醫生說到Charles Bukowski的rain,令我想畫這個故事,但還有兩個重要畫面未完成,所以你現在是不能夠猜到牠們幹麼在那裹。近日畫的故事分別有煙和酒。哈哈,等我下星期俾我supervisor 睇先。我就覺得兒童書有煙酒無乜問題,明明睇到啲大人係咁,無須要扮呢個世界無呢啲嘢。反而可以有討論機會。佢都會認同。期待試下講俾小朋友聽。用了我最喜歡的紙,very coarse pastel paper, if you smudge it with your finger, your skin will bleed very quickly. 圖片顏色失實,沒有scanner, 只用了相機影。跟kitty 同學吃早餐及在king's college cafe 畫畫,是一個很好很好望人的地方。(對,下面有八張畫的,你要按才會動)

Friday, April 20, 2012

晴天

今天早上,出奇地陽光充沛,走過漂亮的灌木叢,往劍橋最詭異的圖書館借書,在池溏畔遇上黑白牛貓和很多剛出世的小毛毛鴨,路旁花朵俏俏盛放,還聽到黃欣的好消息。我們還訂好了六月的夜半派對!極之期待。窗外的樹木樣子全都不同,剛坐下便忍不住要把它們畫在紙上,圖書館外那寧靜庭園,盛着快要滿溢的太陽光。十點,我已去了三個圖書館!我又在看錯誤的書籍,還是趕緊寫文章!還有工作要做呢!

雖然我沒有考試,但聽落很不錯。EXAM CARE:From 14th May onwards, there will be hot drinks and cake provided in the Garden room at 9.30pm. Take a break from revision and have a snack!

家在小山丘上,總覺得回家的路很遠,卻是回顧一天的好時間。早上以後跟iris 同學到Pembroke College吃午餐,他們的午餐真的很多款式,怪不得那麼多人去,圖書館的大窗外下着靜靜的雨,做好了四張海報後,在街角遇到剛考完試的老朋友田中先生,咖啡短敍,回家做很好味的飯。奶黃色的鬱金香,最漂亮的裙,寧靜的雨,淺綠色的西西里柑橘+香橙花。

Thursday, April 19, 2012

幸福

士多啤梨批是漂亮的,上野的柴犬也是。咖啡店的木是實木,近日看日本人的ブログ全都充滿著櫻花,他們的櫻花好密啊,像棉花。Pancake 沒有正確的中文名字,它們卻是厚厚的。我不是坐在柔柔的黃燈和暖爐旁麼,不是聽著柔柔的鋼琴聲嗎?我不也是坐在地上的墊上嗎?我卻想要\禮儀師之奏鳴曲\中下雪的暖,|花水木|中的東京小部屋。今天做了很多個小時認真的事。但還有很多要做的功課。今天遇上一隻黑白貓,跟她玩了一會,她便跟著我走,我們一起走了很久。令我想起夢幻街少女中的肥貓,每家人都給牠起不同的名字,但誰都知道牠不屬於誰。想要往森林去。ミルクレープ, 對,我們昨天吃了士多啤梨蛋糕。我也想東京晚上便利店的綠茶布丁啊。
張大春說:「幸福二字連用,恐怕是宋代以後的事,而且連用起來的意義,也遠非近世對於愉悅、舒適、如意的生活或境遇的描述。最早使用「幸福」,應該是把「幸」字當「祈望」、「盼想」的動詞,所以《新唐書‧卷一百八十一》說到唐憲宗迎佛骨於鳳翔,奉納於宮中,韓愈寫〈諫迎佛骨表〉,皇帝氣得差一點貶死韓愈,可是儘管祈福如此虔誠的皇帝也未能安享天年。史家說:「幸福而禍,無亦左乎!」意思就是:求福而得禍,實在是大大地悖拗人意呀! 倘若「幸福」二字的連用,能還原成將「幸」字當作動詞,應該會給那些終日自覺不幸福、或是不夠幸福的人一種比較踏實的感覺。道理很簡單:「幸福」不是一個已完成的狀態,是一個渴望的過程──而且往往不會實現。」(認字。78-80; 不是雞精. 67-68)
(photo taken by kat's real camera! :)

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

told this story at volunteering today, the children thought it's the best one among the few books i read. probably cuz they are from cambridge, and could relate to the experience of punting, one girl kept pronouncing 'punting' as 'hunting,' 'I went hunting on my birthday too, and we saw a pumpkin... it was so confusing lol

written by kat & illustrated by mao
P.S. one of the little girl pointed out that the duck on the river was wearing the sunglasses i dropped

Monday, April 16, 2012

緩緩

一直以嚟,覺得自己寫啲字都可以接受丫,直至遇到呢兩個人...羅御醫。白爪魚。你哋啲字係咪靚咗少少。近日隨了發現一個春夏秋冬的事,還發現在劍橋的日子只剩下約一百天,這裹的生活當然不是分分鐘都快樂,但係我實在知道我將會掛住﹣成日同身邊的朋友傾計都學到新嘢,把酒談哲學,在古式飯堂吃早餐,走路到市場、河邊的日子。跟工作與否無關,關鍵是速道。像刺猬般緩慢生活。繼續看書了 : )
倒數一周: 與 我 常 在
a little fall of rain can hardly hurt me now. you're here, that's all I need to know

Friday, April 13, 2012

真幸運,結果天氣很好,很好很好
Nowadays we don't punt, we just sit on the punt and let it float. 
with good old friends, some came all the way to camb.
after they finished the few bottles of wine, they started getting really crazy and kept "shaking" the punt, pretty freaky. oh no, i forgot, i dropped stuff into water :| oh nooooo!!! 
but this still remains the best punting trip ever, with craziest people. who punted straight towards the stone bridges. 
and a wonderful night with yum yum sushi rolls and wondering stories, medical and ghost ones! 
feel so loved.
so so loved. 
had a brief moment of rain of flower too, real rain of flower. 

Thursday, April 12, 2012

好天氣

今日,好唔錯。好耐無去過South Ken, 天氣好好,羅醫生無幫我睇病,反而帶我去飲酒,部wine-tasting 機器好得意,只需要插增值咭,就可以放個酒杯埋去,唔同價錢唔同mL,咁好嘅商機點解香港無人做。

然後同朋友仔去食ひろば. 好好味呀,雖然食咗好少,但係睇到都覺得好滿足,都好想再去啊!好好好好滿足。

有好多魚魚魚魚魚。仲有matcha latte ah (pic)

好眼瞓。

近日講起我哋喺cambridge 只係得一個春夏秋冬呢件事。

記住:要買魔幻泡泡。

I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day.
- E. B. White

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

橙樹

一好返就急不及待想出去玩,個天都覺得我要病﹣咁我就會留喺屋企,定係因為尋日落大雨被逼留喺屋企所以病呢?明明前日都無事。之前同之後都無傷風徵狀等,但係就發燒,headache/ dizzy/ shiver/ tired/ wanna vomit, 只係可以瞓覺。瞓左十七個鐘之後似乎已經好返九成!本來星期五的天氣報告係黑色雲、一點雨、少少太陽,依家變左係白色雲+少少太陽woo. not bad! 今日ccc,羅醫生同埋白爪魚要面試啊!好緊張同埋搞笑呀!我都想去倫敦玩啊!(雖然佢地唔係去玩)諗起佢哋可能會俾人grill, 只係令我想食泳池邊的the grill.
edited: 今朝真係出咗去玩,但係原來未好返,不過我啲朋友真係太好了,包括打電話給我的、送粥及雞湯來我家的和車我去tesco 買生果的,全都很好。
坐車真係好好玩。啲人成日講到啲橙咁萬能,我都想種返一棵橙樹。

Monday, April 9, 2012

掂念

鮮花tiara, 忽然大雨,寧靜星期天,失實的回憶,街上碰上中一至中三的同班同學﹣李穎兒。二十三條,政治中立,煲,午夜的魚,おやすみ、北京時的moleskine,失實回憶中你的反應,白鬱金香,朋友分享的音樂。配對的音樂。錯配的人。喜歡白色的平面作品,偏偏要用黑色相片。不夠好。空緊張。白爪魚同學回來後我也突然開始工作起來!施翔騰貪玩換咗我電話的wallpaper做一張好肉酸嘅相, 未搵得返原本張相, 用了一張河邊的靚相代替住先,不過睇極部電話都好似唔係我嘅咁。明明我好鍾意河邊張相,明明我成日都覺得要轉,但係我都係想要返用咗好耐hedgehog 張相,the fact itself is disturbing.現實不是應該更美好嗎。想起黃欣寄給我的剪報,「未了之情,特別動人」

Sunday, April 8, 2012

a room of one‘s own

參觀一個人間房通常可以對一個人瞭解多啲,不過好多人間房都好hea, 估唔到steve間房係咁㗎!一直知道佢有個大露台,原來仲有五盆由大至細嘅植物,房裹面有新鮮蘭花,紫色花, vintage suitcase, 人體素描, 梳化, 畫板,大木枱,雪櫃裹面有好多嘢飲,空酒樽,天花板貼咗銀幣, 果然係建築系的同學,舒服音樂,黃色燈,太靚喇. 仲好多靚畫。
點會唔晚晚都有客人,點會捨得離開Cambridge.佢話每唔開心嘅時候就會去買盆花,就會開心返。係一個好好,食魚生飯的中學同學聚會。學Steve 話齋,呢度真係好多外表平凡但係其實好勁嘅人。Steve就係一個例子啦!

復活

Saw this little free library today, love this idea very much, and there's a garden on top of it! and christmas lights inside! (pic)really like it! Don't you think?
Easter weekend, revisited many colleges and gardens with Joyce, went punting on the river with lots of picnic food, the picnic continued well into the night in my room. finally tried the sticky mango rice at sala thong :P drove around cambridge and saw parts that i have never been before lol. somehow walking around makes me think how great it is to be a student here, beautiful flowers blooming everywhere, living in old rooms in inner courts, surprisingly, makes me rethink about the idea of doing a phd!! anyway, really need to start working hard after this weekend!!!!! sitting by the river is one of the best, best thing to do. love reading outdoor. oh yes, today is oxbridge boatrace!

Thursday, April 5, 2012

下雨

經常都想嘗試留在家裹長一點,這樣簡單的事情都要用effort 才能達到真古怪。下午到外面走了一圈,選擇寧靜的路,在St. John's sports field 那廣闊的足球場s 之間,只有自己一個,挺不錯的,還拿着熱豆奶,多好。做功課的同時看了金枝玉葉。
有同學剛開始 library crawl, 這是我想做很久的事情啊(how nerdy),但開始了,必定什麼都做不完(There are over 100 libraries in Cambridge.)。唯有早點做完thesis, 作為七月的獎勵吧。如果可以住在寧靜的河邊多好。Trinity Hall Library 啲木真係好靚,顏色特別,厚實木,好有質感。是康河畔最新的建築物,設計大膽,你睇,佢仲係連住舊的library,好似係同一座建築物,但又一啲都唔imitate 舊的部份。仲有,我知,雖然唔鍾意大城市,但鍾意在很高的大廈上看風景,這個圖書館有四層,在這裹頗罕有啊!

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

白桜

川側に行ったら、よくなった。河邊的白櫻花正在盛放,雖然今天並不特別暖,但坐在廣闊的天空和緩緩流水之間,能自然達到靜心瞑想的效果。然後往河邊的木圖書館去,從頂層可遠眺茂密的綠樹林。這樣漂亮的風景,真難得。雖然下雨,但也很美。晚飯時又說起grantchester, 好天再去啊。
Ted Hughes & Sylvia Plath's days in Grantchester.
Remember Rupert Brooke’s poem? Well we had tea by the roaring fire at ‘The Orchard’ (where they serve tea under flowering trees in spring) and the ‘clock was set at ten to three’ and there was the most delectable dark clover honey and scones
We walked 15 miles yesterday through woods, fields, and fen, and came home through moonlit Grantchester and fields of sleeping cows”.
Ted and I went up a green river in a punt … We had tea, honey and sandwiches under the apple trees in Grantchester”.
mw, nc & wy, it's v. 美中不足 u can't join floating-away.

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

膽小鬼

花見

spent so much time drawing, that was precisely the original intention, no? 畫咗好似實現咗咁。Look at the flat in the middle where they are baking yuzu pound cake, small but cosy, everything in eyesight, can even walk downstairs for a bowl of ramen! what do you think? 
watched hunger games with friends today. seems like there'd be friends visiting every week in april & may... do you think i really should go to library tomorrow?! 

Monday, April 2, 2012

市集

久別了的東倫敦。在陽光下,跟可愛的羅醫生看了一整天漂亮的東西,花市場上的空中花園實在太令人羡慕了,穿梭於各式古怪地攤及奇特美食之間,吸收了很多人氣、花香,還去了city farm,啊....。簡單但十分十分滿足的一天。你看,人們的背影多好看,好新奇。
想起beyond 的喜歡你, 真夠random.再次泛起心裡無數的思念 已往片刻歡笑仍掛在臉上 願你此刻可會知 是我衷心的說聲,喜歡你
詭異事:今天看著看板很久,顯示往cambridge 的火車是在零號月台,我深信一定是打錯了,但原來真係喺platform zero...(pic) 點解會有零號月台,好唔明白。係咪新嘅hogwarts express 月台
p.s. leslie cheung reli hai ho charming.