Tuesday, September 22, 2020

照顧

朋友剛領養了隻半盲的白狗狗chaya, 雖然身體有殘缺,但性格好外向,讓我想起小Rosie, 我為rosie手造的陶瓷骨灰龕,及她那最漂亮、來自LAP 的crocodile 衣服都一直放在我床邊。

因為她來自繁殖場,一生都住在籠裹,腳仔都變形了,行路一拐一拐的,一隻牙仔都無,她來我家後做過大手術,我把床架丟了,以防她會弄傷腳。

在她臨死前的八個月,每個月都總有一次全身癲癇,其實不過是今年三月。記得當時City U 獸醫診所的麻醉科醫生也很傷心,眼泛淚光,他說Rosie 很乖很友善 :'( 

自從她離世以後,喵喵就一直病,瘦了很多,小便一直有問題又會有血,常常不舒服大叫,幸好我爸媽都好錫他,但很想他快點好起來。

有時啲人會話,didn't thought my cat really liked Rosie so much, 但他自幾個月大就有Rosie 了,你見他們每張相都是一起的,而在最後一年,喵喵更是天天晚晚要找籍口把頭推到Rosie 身邊,越睡越近。

這幾天小草眼睛四周紅了,應該沒有什麼大礙的,但好痕,好可憐。我把她抱在懷裹工作,我們常常周末去Lump studio,她已經大膽了很多,但平日出街一開始還會瘋狂地震,很傻的,總的來說都是一隻很驚青的狗,不能抵受太多壓力,也是被繁殖場丟棄的。

無,其實我想話,做care taker of sick people 不比做病人容易。

為什麼沒有多啲人去appreciate 啲caretaker, 真係好難的。

我知道世上有caretaker support group, 但可能未必好多caretaker 會去seek help, 因為照顧病人/智障人士/dementia etc. etc. 已經夠忙夠辛苦了,另,其實就算病人都未必會去support group, 就算有support group 可能都會好多嘢唔知講唔講好even within the sick community. 

最後,我一直希望我畫嘅畫可以幫到人,好細個嘅時候都鍾意畫吓Fantasy, 靚嘅嘢,自己嘅夢想; 大個真係做illustrator, 覺得illustration 都係溝通重要嘅medium, 好多NGO 未必有錢,但佢哋照顧嘅係社會上邊緣嘅社群,有好嘅storytelling, 或者係visual storytelling, 可以令更多人知道重要嘅議題,所以盡可能只係做呢一類project. 

Sunday, September 20, 2020

飛行

你唔知我識飛㗎?

今早收到Celia 的message 問我這是不是黃大仙上慈雲山的小巴站,是啊!她說她就住在左邊高出來那一座,問我可不可以share 那幅, of course, 開心得快要哭出來 (by now, 顯然你知道我和蛇王都成日感動得快要哭出來)

幾天前reiko 又圈出了她等巴士的地方! 
沒想過呢!大家真的找到自己的家,讓我也很開心。幾天前才說起,現在畫地圖和地區都好像是給那一區人寫情書一樣,但不知對方會不會收到!感覺有少少收到呀!

我成日畫 (oblique) aerial view of 一個社區,啲人都會唔認得嗰個係自己嗰區。然後佢哋就會問「你係點睇到呢個角度㗎?」我就會話「我夜晚係隻飛鳥」

回憶這東西很神奇, nomad 孩子我,小時候也花過很多零碎時光在黃大仙,因為姨媽住那區,這幅畫是從她家的窗口畫的(鳳凰新邨)而我姨姨、舅父也住過同一個地方,小時爸媽工作忙碌,有兩年什至不在香港,只有我跟這些親戚住,所以就有這一段回憶,一起去西九龍學溜冰,夏天從地鐵站走回家短短的路卻熱得很;姨媽是freelancer 裁縫,專做溜冰裙,我們會走往蒲崗村道的那條斜路去買扣鈕。

果然是個依山而建的小鎮。我在那裹學懂看天文台的雷達圖追風。

不過成日畫 (oblique) aerial view of 一個社區,啲人都會唔認得嗰個係自己嗰區,好crazy。還有某一隻body shop shower gel 嘅味道。

每次畫香港都覺得香港真係好靚好獨特好多hidden gems. 

Saturday, September 19, 2020

一拳

十年前已罷坐港鐵的人

一鳴逆市開書店,好勁呀,要加返佢哋一拳書店落深水埗張地圖先。記得佢十年前在facebook start 咗「一年唔幫襯地產商」嘅行動,當時同朋友都覺得好有趣。後來因為各式工作所以有機會認識了他,覺得佢教班好勁,我都想去上吓。一陣去探佢哋先。你哋都去啦。

今天海如常很藍,漂亮啊。游了水的日子就是好日子。

一早又revisit 了storyboard, 你們會好像我這樣不停revisit 個storyboard 嗎?

一會兒要參加朋友爸爸的喪禮。

雖然我在家工作,但其實我真係可能有啲工作狂的,成日瘋狂畫畫寫字搵foster 跑步游水,但都仲係好多嘢做唔晒,有時覺得, 雖然我是一整天都「在家」但忽略了小草和喵喵,心裏不好意思,我知以前都說過了。

https://hk.appledaily.com/local/20200213/AYDZ6ZHLEI4MB7LQMIVCFXZRGQ/

Thursday, September 17, 2020

餅糭

呢個spread 可能係全本書最複雜,因為講緊仲有另一個人死咗,同埋係最多字嘅一頁,因為其他主要係講買嘢。

「接近山腰的小巷中,是嫲嫲以前去開嘅理髮店,嫲嫲喜歡這家髮型屋的師傳都係獅子,而且剪一次只係二十五元,不過老獅子髮型師已經離世了。今日經過,見到他的兒子竟然穿起老爸爸的制服,唔通佢會接手爸爸的生意?」

呢本書係關於獅子爸爸和小獅子去到獅子山下嘅獅子村 (其實係黃大仙)

小朋友沿路不停話要買呢樣嗰樣,貼紙、叉燒、芒果、等等.... 

同埋經過幾個想起爸爸童年嘅地方

其實佢哋當日係去掃墓唔係野餐,而小朋友想買嘅都係嫲嫲喜歡嘅嘢(唔會文字上交待但總之係咁啦)佢亦會把貼紙貼在嫲嫲個墓碑上面。但我哋唔想全本書只係得一個人死咗,所以會輕輕提起仲有第二啲本來喺呢度嘅人或東西都已經唔同咗喇。 

唔知大家有無喺面書Follow Pasu 生死教育嘅page 呢?

又原來,有啲人係未聽過佢同埋佢個協會,我以為個個都會識㗎添,Pasu 係資深遺體修復師及英國註冊遺體防腐師。全職為醫學院解剖實驗室經理,現任「香港生死學協會」會長。平日以【生死教育 × 伍桂麟】和【陪着你嘔】Facebook 專頁宣揚生死議題及情緒關顧。著有《生死教育講呢啲》及《無言老師 — 遺體捐贈者給我們的生死教育課》。

https://www.thestandnews.com/author/%E7%94%9F%E6%AD%BB%E6%95%99%E8%82%B2/

呢本書其實係part of 佢哋一個wider project, quoting them: 香港生死學協會 申請了黃大仙區議會的資助,用大家以前所謂蛇齋餅糭嘅錢做以下三樣嘢(唔似建制派,我係冇錢袋嘅)

1)「齊上齊學」抗疫及生死教育線上工作坊
2)區內派發5000本免費生死教育繪本
3)生死教育短片
今早見到 #貓珊 出帖分享的幾張手稿(小編下午再轉載此帖再介紹下佢),真係非常感動!希望黃大仙居民喜歡呢本 #生死教育 #繪本
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「齊上齊學」抗疫及生死教育線上工作坊有好多好多唔同嘅topic, 例如係精神健康與創傷復原、從疫情而生的焦慮、靜觀修練、長者支援、長期病患者照顧、自閉症及弱能人士照顧、認知障礙症的診斷和治療、癌症治療及照顧、在家運動及練習等等
另外十月開始逢星期六早上亦有請到不同人講生死教育的議題,例如 :臨終醫療早決定、善生.善別.善終、兒童哀傷支援、遺囑等等。



Wednesday, September 16, 2020

電視

"Sometimes I long so much to do landscape, just as one would go for a long walk to refresh oneself, and in all of nature, in trees for instance, I see expression and a soul.”—Vincent van Gogh, The Hague, December 10, 1882, to Theo van Gogh Morning Experimentation 左下角黑白的,係獅子爸爸嘅童年回憶。只有數頁是有回憶的部份, 其他都係佢哋迷離上山和買東西之旅。 「經過一棵大樹,聽說以前是一個大遊樂場,當時遊樂場中還安裝了部公眾電視,那時感覺既得意又奇怪!但不知那年又無聲地消失了。」還有就是嫲嫲總會在獅子爸爸看電視看得興起時大聲叫他回家幫手開飯。 「一面上山的路上,經過一處聽說是爸爸、爺爺嫲嫲以前喜歡食點心的地方」 🥽因為我用呢種紙係用有機植物fibre/回收玻璃樽來做的,摸起來像沙紙,真係rough 到可以用來打磨嘢,所以在不同嘅光線下睇落都好唔同,scanner / 相機其實都反映唔到佢真實隻色。 似乎除住第三波疫情完結,所有嘅人都又地洞鑽出來, 泳池也將會重開了! - SJS book reminded me I can start book three (智障人士生死教育) - need to continue the NTK map - 翻譯日文邀請信 - 找天上LUMP 看龍窯書的layout (然後仲有好多要畫) - 繼續畫呢本書啦 - picbook class tutorial (TBC) - Poem Illustration - 各位朋友仔嘅小commission - 10/10 兒童紓緩服務基金的talk (postpone 了很久啊) - Edit for Tai Po map - LAP talk with veronica

Monday, September 14, 2020

獅子

獅子山下的聚落 - 寫給你的情書
忘了以前是不是這樣想,但近年畫的香港各區地圖(灣仔、深水埗、花園大廈、大埔等)和繪本,都覺得自己在做一封給那一區的人的情書或者是一份禮物(唔知嗰度啲人想唔想要呢份禮物啦,但我心裹面就有呢種感覺)荃灣嗰幅有啲突別嘅,因為疫症好啲後會有participation 嘅部份(well 其他都想有,但嗰幅係真係有)

早年(2012) 畫「最後的告別」什至係中上環地圖時,感覺更多是「我好鍾意呢區呀」「想同其他人分享」「想記得呢啲消失中嘅嘢」嘅感覺。

After multiple brainstorming parties, we have came to a storyline for this story that is set in Wong Tai Sin, the first draft of the storyline written by someone who never wrote stories, failed so badly, we had to rewrite it a few more times. 

I kept thinking of my picturebook class dearies! (我知你哋都係大人,有啲可能大過我,但因為係學生,就會覺得佢哋都係小朋友)So I feel like I need to work at the same pace as you guys now! 

繪本研習班嘅成品展會喺- 26/October -8/November 喺突破書廊度展出㗎,我都好興奮添,你可以follow 佢哋個IG 睇下佢哋係唔係真係有乖乖日日畫緊。


Some people said the drawings are nice. But I feel like crying after finishing each one cuz it seems like they aren’t good enough.

I guess I’m just in bad mood. But when I draw the last picture book 心急狸和慢子狸, I loved every spread almost. As I have mentioned to some of you privately, that collaboration turned out to be quite a nightmare between all the parties (the clients, the artists, the publishers, because there was a crazy coordinator that jeopardised the whole process, that is suppose to be ENJOYABLE!  (the book is printed and it’s beautiful) But the memory is a little tainted, but these things don't happen often, everything else was and will be good. 

Saturday, September 12, 2020

泳棚

 .*Smile, Swim, Dazzle*.
在我家行路距離有另一個不及鐘聲泳棚出名的泳棚,是個十分漂亮的海邊,樹和樹中間有人impovise swings, hammock 等,常常有人跑步帶狗。
今早去了我家附近那個泳棚,跟很多五六十年代的泳棚一樣,有更衣室,還有freshwater source 供人先身,勁。
剛好有個全頭白髮的婆婆下水,她游了二十多年了。
係喎,話時話,華貴也有個泳棚,也是很多老人游的。
想起沙灣,大家會不會是想起沙灣徑25號(龍應台的香港筆記)呢?

「城市發展的另一種可能是:老街上有老店,老店前有老樹,老樹下有老人,老人心裏有這個城市特有的記憶,他的記憶使得店鋪有任何人都模仿不來的氛圍、氣味和色彩。如果不是老店,那麼甚麼都不怕的年輕人開起新店,店裏每一根柱子,柱子上哪怕是一根釘子,都是他性格和品味的表達。離了婚的女子開起咖啡館,每一只杯子、每一張桌布每一瓶花草都是她個人美學的宣示。老婆婆的雜貨店的酸菜還泡在一個你從小就看過的陶缸裏,成為你日後浪跡天涯時懷鄉的最溫暖符號。香港不是沒有這種個性和溫暖,買得到野薑花的石水渠街、印過喜帖和革命文宣的利東印刷街,都是香港最動人最美麗的城市面貌。但是在「開發」的意識型態主導下,他們在一條街一條街的消失,被千篇一律面無表情、完全看不到「人」、看不到個性的都市建設所取代。」

棚流行於二十世紀初,收費廉宜。所謂泳棚其實是海面上一條小橋,方便泳客下水。部份泳棚附設小賣部和更衣室。由於當年香港社會的經濟不富裕,泳棚提供泳衣租用服務,女裝泳衣租金三毫子,男裝泳褲更便宜。硫磺海峽是香港海峽之一,位於青洲、小青洲及香港島區之間。青洲上有兩個漂亮的白燈塔,分別建於1875 1901年、很多十九世紀末二十世紀初的香港遊記和旅遊書都有提及它。
"Rounding the corner towards Hongkong will be seen some of the forts which have been planned on a scale of thoroughness little dreamed of to protect Hongkong in time of need. These are appropriately known as the Belcher forts. Green Island is a picture worthy of any film. Here there is a lighthouse directing the course for incoming steamers and on top of its sugar-loaf fern-covered heights is a signalling station. The only inhabitant is the light-keeper and he is "King" of a territory the whole of which can be viewed from its summit. In front of the nearly violin shaped opal green sheet of water known as Pokfulam reservoir...“ (Information for travellers landing at Hong Kong, c.1921)

其實昨天那篇也是關於游水啊。
然後昨天也有游水。
另外沿海有狗兒游水,有人划船。
The moment rejuvenates the soul. Swim, just swim. 
Me: 啲人話抓住夏天的尾巴呀 
Mom: 抓乜鬼丫,快啲踢走佢添。秋天先最舒服 水呢方面我哋都唔驚凍 之前十月都游室外。


Friday, September 11, 2020

水壩

話說我以前咪喺赤柱讀書嘅,常會經過大潭水塘好舊嘅大壩,下面有個好平靜嘅海灣,係一個對我來說好特別嘅地方。

那裹有神秘的水上(在水中央的)紅磚煙囪、紅磚屋白磚屋還有幾百年老的tracks .. 有次我們坐在百多年老紅磚煙囪下邊喝清酒,邊看雲霧在黃昏時份從山後填滿天空,一架叫「夜貓」的小船來到我們面前,把水手們載回來。我央求他載我到香港仔。

一直覺得這海灣是我的,有時什至後悔跟別人分享了。

後來有次跟見山嘅哥哥姐姐食飯,作者法拉,Amy, 蛇王,吉光片羽的阿東和

竟然聽到他們提起我個海灣!omg!原來法拉在她的書上帝旅行社中也有提過。

法拉在行上帝之路Camino的時候,認識了一位英國女士Fiona,得悉她年輕的時候曾經在香港近大潭的一個地方,幫年輕人做福音戒毒。

法拉好奇那地方在哪。因為Fiona說那是一間海邊的白色屋,早上他們會行石梯下午游水。記得有一次,她自己下水,突然覺得海面很靜,不尋常,她覺得是有鯊魚,於是她很快地游回岸邊。那是鯊魚經常會在香港水域出現的時候。他們說:「我們去那間白色屋那天,是Fiona下葬的日子,所以法拉和師父特意選這條路,沿途摘了一束白色小花,遙送給她。」

長文小魔怪(我),昨天有三個人說好admire 我寫極仲有咁多嘢寫,但其實我昨天正為此很懊惱- 我覺得自己好怪啊(well not super 懊惱but has this feeling >.<, 我嘅voice b 就話你都做了怪人咁多年還有什麼好稀奇)

你可以好似我咁,去見山,買一本上帝旅行社。作者是香港人,不是天主教徒,但兩個人,花了四年時間行這條朝聖之路。

謝謝東和sharon. 一早六點俾我煩住問呢啲嘢。

Thursday, September 10, 2020

散步


在Work From Home 的初期,有個朋友問我想唔想寫吓有乜嘢work from home secrets, 好多人都知我有啲好瘋狂風雨不改嘅rituals, 就係會每朝游at least 1 km 水同埋每晚都跑步或至少行(同一條)路。

我仲可以食同一個salad 幾年都唔厭 (我都笑咗出嚟)

對於從事創作行業嘅我來說,覺得這個ritual 好重要,因為有時間限制才會做嘢efficient, 同埋坐得耐都好辛苦呀,如果幾十個鐘在桌前工作,我諗我會立刻癲囉,仲有,出外總會遇到好多inspiration,每天都在變動的風雲海浪與植物,遇到的各種人等。

以前睇過本書叫做daily ritual, 話好多出名嘅畫家作家都有獨特嘅rituals, 當中好多習慣每天走很多路。雖然我不是藝術家或音樂家,但覺得走過路的一天總是特別好。

我中一就開始寄宿了,以前喺我間學校寄宿跟現在應該很不同的(因為以前比較嚴,現在變了有錢人嘅直資學校:P ) ﹣每天七時半要穿好校服把房間收拾好讓老師巡房撿查,放學到洗衣房拿衣服,晚上趕往飯堂,當值那天要領禱,但爛玩嘅我有時都會遲到!然後吃飯後散步,必須要絕對安靜和留在位子裏的兩小時自修時間 Prep time~十時正關燈睡覺。
小時寄宿, 過了多年不用花時間擔心穿什麼吃什麼買什麼放學之後往那裹去的時光,能夠把心神專心做好要做的事﹣這大概就是規律生活的最大好處。

狄更斯是其中一位嚴格作息的作者,並且會每天散步。每日在完全安靜的狀態從早上九點工作至下午兩點。之後便出門散步三小時。另一名導演會於每天早上和午餐,邊吃着同樣的食物邊寫作,寫到三時便出門口散步。

"Be regular and orderly in your life, so that you may be violent and original in your work." - Gustave Flaubert

我確實是很相信這件事的,所以現在也要出去做運動了 :P 

不過每個人都有適合自己的生活模式,你的是怎樣的呢?

Tchaikovsky, Beethoven, Mahler: They all loved taking long daily walks. 

https://slate.com/culture/2013/04/tchaikovsky-beethoven-mahler-they-all-loved-taking-long-daily-walks.html

慈雲

獅子山腰的牛牛「自懂事已發現43座遊樂場安裝了部公眾電視,那時感覺既得意又奇怪!但不知那年又無聲地消失了,除了43座,不知慈雲山那裡還安裝了公眾電視呢?」

我們家自細都是在慈雲山拜山的,之前說過,公公很年輕去世了,但媽媽一家人關係很好,而每次去拜山都真的像一家人行山聚會野餐般,那裹有張好靚嘅藍色modernist 膠椅,咁多年來裝修前後一直都在。可以說是在獅子山腰吧,可以眺望整個九龍半島。

另外,下山時會經過一個牌匾寫住「回頭是岸」我細個很不明白(也許現在也不明白)係唔係勸啲仙人唔好偷走,回頭是岸。那個地方還有一隻靈牛sculpture, 背後有個好有趣嘅故事,大概係話佢當年係在長沙環屠場,即將要被宰來吃,但他每次都會下跪流淚,最後有人不忍心,把它帶了去慈雲山這處住,由十八歲住到二十八歲!

我婆婆家很多人都住過或仍然住在黃大仙啊。我也住過一兩年(真係巧合,我實在係個小nomad)後來我們搬了去南區,婆婆硬是說還是黃大仙最好住,落街有嘢食,而我就唔認同 XD 我們在這事上一直有分歧。

慈雲山上有間叫國貨,由一對夫婦經營,他們把做生意的座右銘寫在店內「興業勤為本,誠心善待人」老闆黃伯沒有上過學,一筆一劃都是自學來,一筆一劃都是心意所在。

老闆黃火文是客家人。因為家貧,十一歲已經在街頭謀生,賣湯圓、涼粉,打肉丸……總之能賣錢的、能自製的,都拿出來做生意。在街頭混的日子久了,膽識過人。

我見到網上有篇關於他們的報導,幾搞笑和得意  - 「大陸還未解放,黃火文不甘貧窮,冒險逃來香港,投靠在黃大仙開布廠的姊姊,負責操作織布機。在布廠,他教女工織布。日子久了,發現當中有個女孩,個子小小,雙目水靈靈,人很聰慧懂事,教甚麼,都看在眼內,記在心裏,做在手裏。黃火文說:「我睇佢對眼大,眼大人就精靈。眼好,做嘢就聽話。好聽話就愛咗佢。」那就是王美玉。「我以前好古老㗎,拖手仔都無,一個行前一個行後。」其實當時的黃火文本是個浪子,「晚晚都有唔同女仔嚟搵我,見到佢我就無再搵第二個。」他們結婚時,男的三十來歲,女的才十六歲。」

有人回憶起「未起公園前呢度有好多野玩好多野食,係我小時候最喜歡去既地方! 記得既有魚蛋、炸魚球、雪糕、雞腳、粉仔、鹹濕野、魚肉麵、夾餅、糖膠公仔、郵票、抽獎、金絲貓、間中有小板賣d小玩意好似沙漏、燙上衣服既冒牌印章等,附近有間賣玩具既舖頭,佢會掛好多玩具出來,同時有賣果汁,不過個老板好惡! 大家仲記唔記得呢度有時會有兩個盲公盲婆乞錢,o個兩公婆其實住我個層, 佢屋企有隻巨貓好似狗仔咁大, 有時係門口聊佢會好惡咁衝埋來,好驚! 仲有大家見唔見到背景o既傾坡,我細個由43座落48座時常係個到跣落去!」

仲有好多好多各位朋友提供嘅小故事。

超級謝謝住在黃大仙嘅Reikomai,畫咗個勁靚嘅地區mind map 給我!超用心的!

Wednesday, September 9, 2020

報恩

貓之報恩與教育電視 

這也是我的創作日記,日記可能會說出不小心得罪人的話,希望不會吧。

總係好擔心我的編輯雅文會死(佢自己咁講㗎),因為她發現自己癌症時已經係第三期,現在已經康復了,但醫生說七年內復發機會好高。 

她是香港兒童文學界很重要的大姐姐,二十年來從樓梯底一直到現在,堅持做很好的故事書給香港人。

好多人以為木棉樹雜誌去年停刊後,整個出版社也執了,但其實她們只係專注做繪本和出版繪本。好像說了好多次都仲有人唔明白。


今日跟我在的大學師姐去探雅文,雅文又提起點解我唔貓之報恩 hahaha,因為我係由木棉樹嘅創刊號開始就睇木棉樹出版嘅書同埋雜誌嘅小讀者,當年不是有人介紹我認識她,也沒想過怎樣厚面皮去找她當我編輯。

多年來她當然亦turn down 過我唔少故事。這樣很好,我記得之前有個post 已提過,我唔認同呢個世界係人都拎啲書去印,覺得怎樣都應該係有一定standard. 近日就遇上這種問題,讓我們好焦急(係想件事好啊)

好驚大家因為要趕deadline, 因為「想出書」,然後個故事唔夠好都死要印幾千本,真係會為啲樹木而喊。


有兩個好好好心的人,拿了一筆錢,要寫一個香港相關嘅故事,佢哋嘅intention 係十分之好的,幾經辛苦寫好咗,問我可唔可以給她一點意見,但真的寫得佷不好(她們都不是這行的,不過是繪本用家)我也問了身邊的人,大家一致覺得這文本中並沒有故事,像教育電視,把要說的話放進主角口中。但不能怪她,寫故事是很難的事啊!真的(所以繪本班嘅同學仔你哋都好叻㗎,我跟她提過你們嘅故事,佢都覺得正)

好彩呢兩個好人都找我編輯幫忙,我亦好為她們焦急,編輯說她也看過了,跟我說「你放心我會坦誠告訴他們,太不像樣的故事是不值得印刷的。這個故事看完了,我的腦海裡什麼影像都沒有。」她跟那個作者說「我以為你們是有一個好故事,所以想出一本書。可是現在看下來,卻好像是反過來了:想出一本書,於是想辦法寫一個故事。」Anyway,但大家唯有一起從零開始再brainstorm,好彩大家都好open, 可以由頭開始一齊傾。 


每次見我呢個編輯都好開心,今天也有我Cambridge child lit 的師姐,她現在在大學教書,也有教兒童文學的課程。

木棉樹也翻譯好多歐洲及北歐繪本(還有日本),有好多都好詩意好靚好唔commercial,因此唔好賣,什至常有家長問呢本書係想講乜,小朋友睇完可以學到乜等。可能好多香港人都好渴求權威嘅聲音,但這樣錯失咗好多閱讀而得到嘅思想的自由啊。

重申一次,兒童文學不止係給小朋友看的。


所以,我們又會寫和畫新的故事書了!

Tuesday, September 8, 2020

雨天

 

今朝起身心情好差,可能昨晚做了惡夢,很真實的,那個夢是關於坐監前的心境的 :O 可能這件事比我們想像中都近,跟每個正常嘅香港人都突然變得有關係!太crazy了, anyway, it's just a dream. (But to many HKers, it's NOT just a dream)

也可能因為下大雨不能出去做運動,或者想起好多嘢未做,想起為什麼世上所有project 都要咁趕,然後大家就以趕為由快快做好佢,結果做了些浪費資源的東西出來,這令我很噢惱。其實都是籍口吧。又想起雖然常常說身邊很多很好很好的人,但其實也有衰人的,我希望我愛嘅你哋都不要遇到他們!

好了,不要說那些人,講返啲開心嘢,好似有啲人做yoga 去calm their minds, 我知道畫畫可以至少讓我片刻寧靜下來,全個人都靜落嚟。我欠這個人這幅畫差不多一年了,太慚愧 ,她們從LAP 收養了三隻貓貓. 

好多multi-pets household owner 都知,如果你收養嘅動物夾不來可以很痛苦的(每天打架,弄很有各種行為問題、在家中胡亂大小便等)啲人成日死唔信,到自己經歷過先至信.... 當然是有辦法introduce 兩隻動物令到呢個情況唔會發生嘅 (you can pm me for referral haha) anyway, 所以我見到呢三隻貓貓咁sweet, 都覺得好令人開心,暖在心頭。

好啦,我開心返喇。

Monday, September 7, 2020

予樂

我家附近有一幅好高好高的護土牆,因為是一個大山坡,長有很多綠樹。

這兩天跑步經過都聽到小貓叫的聲音,但看不到他,我知道這個山坡頂有四隻貓貓,但都已絕育,但當然永遠還會有流浪貓/被人遺棄的貓在一個colony 裹出現。今天走近一點看,那山坡很斗峭,都是鐵絲網,今朝又下雨,叫咗兩日,就算今天還未死,都很難救得活,更何況這個山坡有幾層樓高,我望都未望到隻貓。雖然做義工這麼久,知道我們不能救活所有動物,但總會有點傷感/傷心 : ( 

聽聲音,肯定是跟我家喵喵當年這麼細的貓BB ,很可能從山坡上媽媽和siblings 的位置掉了下去。然後就排唔返上去,貓仔咁細,食很快痾得快,無嘢食一陣死都死得快啲。好傷心啊。

不過也有幸運的孩子,近日聽到兩隻好勁嘅動物名,佢哋真係完勝呀。

兩個組織都有出現在我的大埔地圖上啊  :P 一個係米埔一隻新水牛,女仔來的,叫做牛柔,因為希望佢好溫柔,BUTTER. 另一個係上周去過的生活書院,他們在大雨天找到一隻瀕死嘅貓BB, 眼睛都發炎了,在大雨天找到所以叫雨落,YOGHURT。

但最後定案叫予樂「因為你給予我們很多快樂,所以叫你做「予樂」。」太美好了。

世事很荒繆。

Sunday, September 6, 2020

小簿


除咗畫地圖、繪本、游水、書、香港歷史呢啲嘢令人怦然心動,另一樣I don't want to start talking about (真)嘅嘢係 - Journaling!! 呀!咁多年嚟,我本moleskine 都係要無時無刻同我一齊的,就算我明知出嗰個街唔會畫嘢寫嘢,但我都必定會帶住佢,啲人成日話買咗本簿用唔晒,我係相反,我成日用到一個窿都無,都未捨得開一本新簿。

屋企已經有好多好多本。裹面有好多好多秘密,暗戀嘅人呀,講人壞話呀,食咗啲乜嘢呀等等。

我覺得journalling 真係好好,因為可以整理生活,睇到自己做過啲乜,要做啲乜,又唔使靚,因為唔會同人分享(實在有啲人叫我拎出嚟exhibit 吓,但真係好多秘密 aiyaaa 

我都好鼓勵做creative industry 嘅朋友keep journal 呀。

而家亦有好多研究話journalling is good for mental health! 

好想畫畫了。

Saturday, September 5, 2020

下雨

下雨下雨下雨天,有白濛濛的下雨天也有黑漆漆的下雨天。

我小時候最喜歡的其中一本繪本就是叫做「下雨天」是一本無字書,講雲吹來,下雨,然後吹走,現在想來都幾poetic. 

現在想來,我好好彩,細個睇好多繪本,除咗係因為小學時去了外國讀書(而繪本少字,係好好學英文嘅方法 - 我literally 係一個旺角小街童,然後被送了去外國讀書,初初真係乜嘢英文都唔識囉)仲有就係因為我姨姨係繪本editor :P haha 所以我細個成日收到佢edit, 佢個出版社翻譯嘅好書。

在關於Animal Rescue的繪本Deserve中,也有一頁是下雨天,一隻唐狗誤打誤撞走進一個繁殖場裹避雨,在新界東北,或者再北一啲沙頭角也有很多這種地方,有時只係用貨櫃,裹面放了數十隻大陸偷運來的狗狗,割了聲帶,用作繁殖,又髒又臭的環境,但平日無人會知完來裹面是這樣的。

如果我不是以前常常要落村工作,也不會知道香港有咁多咁嘅地方。

今晚要做一個小小的animal rescue related 的talk on behalf of LAP, Veronica dear 昨天也問我是時候restart 我哋嘅education programme 未,因為有公司問。去年我們在學校和各式大小公司做了七十個talk, 今年至今應該係零,this is 2020. 

我們通常會講吓我哋嘅charity 係做啲乜啦(rehome animals, education, Shek Kwu Chau Rehabilitation Island 戒毒上嘅companion dogs); 啲貓貓狗狗係嚟自邊度㗎?(govt kennels, breeder, surrender, half stray injured dogs etc.) 

如果你未準備好領養,咁可以點樣出一分力呢?

下午也要開會呀,Karpo 話我係佢哋嘅發展代表(你這樣說也太瘋狂了)但讓我想起我們應該開展一個令類發展商, 做愉快, choose kindness, sustainable, empowering, 有創意嘅事。

有幾本繪本好想好想講呀 ,等我得閒啲嘅時候講,仲有好多嘢未做。

我每畫完一幅地圖都好似睇完一本書嗰種感覺,仲係好掛住,可能有啲失落,luckily there is still lots of good and exciting things ahead of us. 

omg 我唔記得咗我本來寫呢個post 係想講有關malamute Erickson 嘅故事, 留返下次啦!

Friday, September 4, 2020

小雲

記得我之前提到一個朋友在照顧terminal cancer 的爸爸嗎?

她總是零晨四時還是醒着因為患末期癌症的爸爸不定時叫喊,她說,以往都是因為要換片而叫,已經不知多少個晚上,未可以一覺睡至天光,未睡足就要上班。跟妹妹就好像在經歷可怕版的狼來了故事。後來不只是幾次,而是一天二十四小時每隔一會就叫。有時叫得好慘好大聲。

家中只有她跟妹妹,還要換尿片等。她爸爸也因為躺着床上時間長已背上生瘡。

大約兩星期前,她爸爸離世了,然後上周她跟我說:「昨晚同呀妹傾左陣,佢傷感啲我見到佢喊,我都流淚。不過傾下又好啲。我琴晚發夢見到爸爸同媽媽,我地成家人一齊又見到LAP 既兩隻狗狗🙈🙈」怎麼會!你都無養狗!

「係貴婦狗。有隻應該係你家的,白色既。我喺夢裡面仲話佢地啲毛好滑。They comfort me,不過都關我琴晚同妹妹講我遲啲要領養狗狗。」

Hey, 我屋企隻狗唔係白色的。但跟住出現了一隻白色隻眼盲盲地嘅狗狗要找暫託家庭,於是我問佢啦,又問了好多其他暫託家庭要不要幫這隻狗,她很快就答了好,我以為佢講笑,問佢係唔係真係要foster, 總之最後就foster 緊了! 我又送咗本自己嘅書俾佢(yikes, 我總係覺得呢個行為好古怪, 好似好自戀咁,我真係咁嘅意思的。咁但係因為係relevant topic 丫嘛 >.< 希望佢會鍾意)

其實我本來是想講去年四月我在誠品做了一個Book Talk [以繪本認識生死], 關於最後的告別那本繪本。有時做Book talk 有個難處,不知道來參與嘅人係乜嘢人,教育工作者丫,定係剛喪親嘅人。

那次前排都是小朋友,that's not a good sign, 因為通常個talk 都係講做呢本書嘅過程,以前跟喪親輔導機構的社工遇見過嘅case 等,好多家長會以為係一個繪本talk , 然後中途離開。

我請大家在一張小小的紙上寫低 what comes to their mind when we think about death. 自己拿住就可,不用跟大家分享。最後這班小朋友留了整個talk, 我問有無人想分享吓自己寫或者畫咗乜嘢, Only the brave kids put up their hands .

⚰️*pic 2 (little girl drew her dad in a coffin) and herself next to it. The family came cuz the dad very very recently passed away. . 

🦊*pic 3 is 6 years old boy with his passed away corgi, his eyes were immediately in tears talking taking about the corgi that passed away “long ago.” 

I gave them stickers and postcards to thank them for sharing. . 🥰It’s so true that death is always around us, and One audience said we shouldn’t focus so much on death and after death but more on treasuring everything we have now, (but my book was written to explain death :p to ppl who r grieving ) however it’s so very very true!



Wednesday, September 2, 2020

地圖

我想起這張相,其實係因為近日在思考一些Participatory mapping 的問題。2014 年秋天,畫了一幅夏𢡱村地圖,當時仲去一直用開嗰間printing shop 印咗一幅六米長的,貼了在金鐘站。我在想,我當時一定也是想大家都把自己看見的東西加進地圖裹 - it's not an art piece, it's supposed to require your input. 

今天我也有去那間printing shop, 這些年來,在那裹印過無數咁多嘢,瘋狂大嘅文宣,自己嘅畫、postcard、送俾人嘅禮物同埋LAP嘅charity calendar等。

怪唔得今日同店後一個人講我係Connie ,佢好似講到... 佢識咗我好耐咁.... 他們不是很便宜(可能佢哋出名貴添 所以我唔會特別向人推介)但他們對我一直很好的。事實上我也不知道佢哋係黃定藍,但係例如,去年我話我要趕住印啲大海報入機場貼,佢哋亦會立刻幫我印。



Sorry 離題了,我想講嘅係Participatory地圖,去年在灣仔電車站地圖時已經超想做,我不想只係我畫,我想聽你們的故事,想睇其他人畫。在紐約有一個女孩子做過,在街上派只有Manhattan outline 的地圖,讓大家回家畫 "Some are heartbreaking (one person mapped key places in his life, from the first apartment he shared with his wife to where she later died); many invoke humour; some are confessions (a student who shows how she funded her studies with work at various strip joints). Some are handscrawled in biro, others are collages, and a few use watercolours." 

手畫地圖很有趣,但現代科技也確實正在改變世界,很喜歡其中一個TED 2020 talk "Can we call it a "world map" if it's missing a billion people?"

很難想像吧,當我們的google map 可以看見每一條街的每一個角落,連村中隻貓都會睇到,但原來世上還有****超過十億人***住在未被mapped 嘅地方的,而這會直接影響各種救災支援工作。

"All crises, including the COVID-19 pandemic we're living through right now, have devastating characteristics. But many of them have one thing in common: the people hit the hardest are often literally not on the map. Right now, more than one billion people live in places that are not mapped. If you look those places up online, you'll see nothing but a blank. And that blank isn't just a huge statement of disrespect to our fellow human beings, it's an injustice, causing very direct, very real and very avoidable human suffering."

不過, GPS 只能帶我們從A去到B點,有一個人一直就跟GPS 上班,每天沿住廢氣滿滿嘅大路走,直至有天突然想detour,發現隔離遲一分鐘的那條街是開滿櫻花,綠草如茵的。

仲有好多未講完呀,近日聽BBC有個節目講一幅人們手傳的秘密地圖.... 太長喇 .... 

種稻

Ladies and gentlemen be jealous *HONG KONG LOCAL GROWN RICE*

And they are still using the logo I designed years ago!!! It's a rice baby holding a piece of grain. 剛巧我又畫緊大埔呢,由去年去看他們開田,係permaculture 呀,好唔容易㗎,又要搭鳥網,唔用農藥嘅田,連周邊嘅田嘅昆蟲都會過晒嚟。一年過後,拿住他們的米,真的感覺好感動呀。粒粒皆辛苦啊。
呢個故事可以追溯到起碼十年前,感覺好像大家一起成長了。
有些人變了,但也有一些人一直在..... 實現一些別人看似瘋狂的夢想。
認識種稻農夫James 多過十年了,我們十一年前一起去瀨戶內海及越後妻有藝術祭當苦工,到現在他回香港成為種稻的農夫,也太過神奇了。
雖然strictly speaking 我常常覺得自己不是他們的social circle, 但各自在自己的領域上做相同理念的事,我猜就是他們當年想種的種籽。 十一年前去瀨戶內海和越後妻有時,我們當了一兩個月苦工,被蟲咬透了,浸溫泉浸到所有皮膚都變滑,挖了幾十個泥洞後,終於有機會去參觀不同作品,其中一個作品嘅artist 係十年前嘅kohebi義工/苦工,十年後回去當藝術家,我當時心想「我都想咁樣」現在想來,也覺得自己係個天真的怪人。
大地予我和藝想的淵源也十分有趣. 藝想由智障和自閉各種有殘疾的人組成的一個陶泥工作室,他們的技巧都超高超的,在2018 年就曾參展在越後妻有大地藝術祭,把三千多件陶瓷作品運往當地展覽。
怎麼我沒有在藝想 2018 年在越後妻有參展時碰見他們(係因為我摺,只係在我條村)感覺好像錯過了些什麼重要的東西,但幸好後來還是遇上了。
另外,最靚,拿住粒米個logo 那隻陶泥薯蛋人都在我家 XD

巴黎

我成日喺IGTV 都係講一啲bereavement topic 嘅繪本,今日同大家分享一個可愛幸福嘅城市故事啦。
如果你常看兒童書及繪本,這個故事對你來說應該不會陌生。

但我覺得這個故事是所有喜歡城市和建築的大人都會喜歡的。

而且也會讓你出街時想想,四周的東西背後會不會有一段小故事。

我初次遇見這本書是一個Spring Break 在巴黎的時候,不是每個人喜歡巴黎,但我很喜歡,以前從英國坐火車去巴黎Spring Break, 覺得好像去了Paradise 一樣,太陽光啲,麵包香啲,天空無咁灰,連生果都多啲,建築物都白淨啲。

很想知道你們會不會都喜歡這個故事。

Tuesday, September 1, 2020

青苔

第七天其實是昨天,但昨天一整天都感到很痛苦,想起去年八三一發生的事(以及其他的一切)記憶仍很新鮮,過去一年的事,在很多人身上留下不能磨滅的身心傷痕。

希望我們都能夠做到,就算失望也不要絕望吧。人的歷史發展從來都不會是一直向好的,總會有較好的時候然後又再變壞,在最壞的地方也有人性的光輝。

想quote 以下呢兩段:看見眾新聞 【831一周年專訪】「太子韓寶生」與家人斷絕關係、流亡異地:「我乜都無⋯我得番信念」這段//他說,流亡之前對光復香港的想像,其實是重拾被大陸壟斷的產業鏈,講的是經濟獨立、產業獨立,香港有自己的市場,電影不用次次都是合拍片、生產口罩可以有自己原材料。「跟住有啲農場咁樣,年輕人可以喺成件事裡面搵到自己嘅夢想,好似日本咁樣,大家好似工匠咁去生活,係呢咋嘢,但係我而家流亡咗⋯⋯」流亡之後,光復香港意味的是他可以回家。//

有用又好冇用又好,一路做、一路試、一路檢討。用唔同方法繼續抗爭係唯一可以贏嘅方法。只要相信會有重光嘅一日,果十二位手足,之前更多離開咗嘅同伴,一切指鹿為馬嘅情況先可以有機會停止。就算感覺上邊有巨大嘅無力感,諗返起「和你抗爭我很快樂」,「我哋真係好撚鍾意香港」。裏面嘅你你我我其實喺實質生活裏邊可能並不相識,但係呢一年培養出嚟嘅默契,果一種「共同」,令我哋就算實質生活裏面並不相識但係感覺到有同伴。走落去一定會贏!

星期天去了大埔的生活書院做一個picturebook talk,他們是由一群熱愛教育、環境和文化藝術的推動者於幾年前創辦的,相信廣義的教育是未來世界的出口, 因此希望為本地的生命、文化及環境教育,注入嶄新的元素。

他們有些很有趣,為年青人設計的班,探討個人生命力跟社會和世界的關係等,也培養懂得發現美好的眼睛。那裹有隻好可愛的貓貓叮叮,還有小青苔星球般的手做純素巧克力。

這畫大埔的地圖快要畫完了。是為大埔的區報畫的,大家都為區報感到好興奮,背後這個創辦人只有她和兩個朋友(其實就真係只有她一人)沒有任何資金資助,出於愛,辭掉做了七年的工來做這件事,所以你們都要密切留意喇。

Monday, August 24, 2020

八月

時不時會想起每年的八月二十七日,整個八月我都在想了,那是我跟喵喵相遇的日子。對了,我發現我個IG近日好多小草的fans, 喵喵啲fans 呢?去晒邊。

我好少提起,但大家應該記得,喵喵年初時病了,係膀胱發炎,小便有血,在這種薑色男仔貓好普遍的,通常係壓力引起,那時剛巧我家小狗Rosie剛去世,他自BB已有Rosie, 而我好肯定他最愛的其實係Rosie, 總是找值口要依偎着她。

好多朋友都分享自己家的動物因為companion animal 去世而大病一場,喵喵在這半年也看了無數次醫生,驗過血、小便,照過x光等。但其實這半來一直沒有好過,小便仍有紅色;今次再看醫生是因為他瘦了很多。

我很喜歡他之前的醫生,也相信其實都真係壓力問題,今天見了另一個更有經驗的醫生,也是說一樣的東西,他說貓貓受壓,其實比我們想像中普遍得多(這個我也知道,年中見不少)

那不要緊,再慢慢來吧。

遇見這隻頑皮喵是在兩個颱風間的一天,我填了表想做狗狗暫託家庭,但剛巧他們急需人暫託這三隻即將要死的唐貓仔,我連佢哋係乜嘢樣都唔知,就去了接他們回家,最後只有我家喵喵捱過來,亦因為他,我才開始在LAP 當foster coordinator. 

上周我去了瑪麗醫院覆診,因為在公立醫院每次都會見不同的醫生,他們不會知道太多,我提起我以前會做的事,沒想過說起時竟然眼泛淚光,怎麼會的。除了愛我的朋友們,除了每天能夠做運動等等,我覺得喵喵, Rosie 和小草也有很大很大的影響。

有些事情在struggle 之中,實在很難看到盡頭,我不會說我現在沒有struggle, 但是因為以上提及的人和事,我感覺那種彷彿不會過的困難,原來也有overcome 的可能性。

On retrospect 好多人都話 they didn't know he had such a love for Rosie, 我總會答 I knew it all along, especially now you look back at the pictures, they are together in every pictures, he seems to think he need to guard her... or bully her, put his arm around her , or sleep with her, or sniff her. i am pretty certain he likes rosie most in our whole home, and I knew it all along, we just didn't say it out loud, because we refuse to believe that.

Sunday, August 23, 2020

德國

 

I don't know why I feel so touched about her case, I nearly cried. 

This little girl was a secret rescue, so I am breaking big rule to post a snippet on my own instagram. When she was first rescued, both her back legs were so deformed, blood profile had multiple red flags, anaemic, she had no hair over her bones, it's likely she had a bone fracture before, I read on the vet notes, and, she had no good teeth to eat. 

Still, her foster family brought her home, one day, he told me she has fell in love with her and want to bring her along to Germany, but in two weeks time! 

I told her it's not optimistic but we can try our best to help, Ann helped to ask AFCD internally to speed up license changing, I endured a few stressful lashed out from her hahaa, she was the one who screamed at me asking why we sent her to middle-of-no-where ridiculous place To Kwa Wan to pick up license; the experience at vet was miserable, the vet said there's no way she can go through health check for flying. I was not optimistic i helped her look for back up foster already. 

Never thought she was so determined, and then after many back and forth calls, she sent a picture in-cabin flying together with them. Like experienced sa jei jei, I knew things aren't all clear yet until they actually arrive at home, but they did >.< 

And doggie is now running freely in their garden in Germany. 

She sent me a very very sweet message, "You are amazing and perfect in all the information, without you I could not have done it seriously. Your knowledge to the process helped alot, cause I had difficulty understanding the process from different pet relocation companies and finally I just decided to do myself. You are the best dog volunteer in hk over my 20 over years here never met you hope we can one day 😊 You are truly a dog lover 🐕❤️❤️❤️. Thanks so much again Connie take care 🙏🙏" 

Actually, she was the one who did all the hard work. My work is also just so minimal, as compared to many many volunteers who pick a lot more poop than me, spend elaborate hours talking with rescuers and adopters, debunking myth, or getting their hands full of mud and blood from taking in abused, neglected, animals. 

Maybe sometimes I cry because I feel like the animals really deserve all the love, but so many human beings still don't get it, and still live in a very human-centric way. And dogs and cats that come in this state is not just one in a million, just while I was writing this, we had an even worst case that had to go to vet this morning, and many that for different reason we couldn't post openly.

Friday, August 21, 2020

驚青

You know what we're like now, we are like our parents' generation, that can only spend a lot of time saving money, before they can go on ONE special journey. A lot of people in our generation has been so used to travelling, and all of us suffer immensely during covid 19, first world problem for SURE! But to look at it positively, I guess it's a good time for us to savour the memories of our past trips bit by bit, and also carefully think of how we want our next trip to be, instead of just hopping on a plane as a way to avoid real life problems. 
[Eng below] 今早,見到黑色唐狗Amir反肚子的樣子,我感動得差點要哭出來。又收到Anna 的foster 的文字和短片,她之前一直被放在家外,過着有一餐無一餐的生活,沒有冷氣,只有蚊叮蟲咬,還要被人欺凌,結果這兩隻唐狗都是負着大傷,被救到我們那裹。

黑色唐狗Amir 就有bone fracture, 有人叫我們慳錢,直接amputate 算,但在醫院住了一段時間,已經有明顯改善了。

黃色唐狗Anna 被救回時要做手術,聽說本來的主人因為懷孕而不再有時間理這五隻狗,任由他們在外面生活。不過暫託爸爸說她好乖,現在見到任何人都好熱情,真的很難想像他們曾經是住在外邊多年的流浪狗。

On the other hand, 今早剛巧見到有人領養了一隻害羞BB 唐狗,好大壓力,text 我們的dog trainer 說覺得自己還是搞唔掂一隻rescued dog..... 

所以,其實你去買隻名種狗也有機會是勁害羞,也有機會有重病,而領養一隻所謂traumatized 的動物,也有機會是性格勁開心的。

Amir always had this scared look, but just the first day since discharging, he was stretching out his legs, and rolling his belly up for rubs, I almost cried seeing it. 

Was so touched seeing Anna's foster's message & video too, both Anna and Amir were adult mongrel dogs, that lived a tough life outdoor, water and food were only given from time to time, always in heat or in cold, itchy from fleas and insects, and worst of all, both of them were victims of bullying, both came to us with a big wound and required expensive surgery. 

Foster said “She greets me with a very waggy bum every morning! A wonderful sweetheart! Just adores attention. Every time she met new people at my apartment, within two minutes, she scratches at them for attention haha ❤️” 

On the other hand, I heard yet another person who said they think they "cannot manage a rescue dog" (after adopting a shy puppy.... but they have met the puppy before...at least they reached out to our positive reinforcement trainer) 

Said it many times, but even if you go buy at the most expensive breeder/pet shop, there's still a chance your dog would be super shy or have serious illness, while even seriously "traumatized" animals can have sweet and outgoing personality. 

Wednesday, August 19, 2020

喳喳

泥米之家/ 泥漿浴場 - 要開幕喇
圖: 大嶼山水牛阿妹、鼠屎仔、喵苗Meowsie、聖雅各藝想的薯蛋人,狗仔小草,野豬。

總之,我今天要看一些文件,畫一幅五加皮酒樽到達上環時檢驗的情況;一幅墳場; 一幅下雨天的畫等等。但結果,首先畫了這幅完全唔關事的畫。

在陶泥工場裹:驚青喵喵推大嶼山水牛阿妹出去練泥,剛去世的屎仔從天堂給力,驚青的小草裝死希望無人見到佢,野豬也是驚青的躲起來食草。

四周有泥屎飄揚, 喳喳淋泥漿浴,喳喳糖水等緊你。

對,你們聽不明白我們說什麼是對的,以上是我跟藝想員工開會後的對話。

你記得「我們的故事」嗎?就是昨天提到那個在灣仔電車站的project, 我知道我講幾十次啲人仲係好confused, 所以我次次都要repeat, 藝想是一個以智障人士和自閉人士為主的陶藝工作室,那兒的師傳仔都是大人,有很多做陶泥近十年了,他們的作品都好專業,什至試過到韓國、日本展覧。過去兩年,他們跟社會上不同人士合作,就是「我們的故事」呢個project, 每一對師傳仔+ 社會人士都做了不同的展品,在灣仔展示。

現在我們正在談未來大計,其中一個部份可能跟動物有關,所以就畫了這幅畫,動物練泥呀。

好吧,我還是先回去畫真的練泥,龍窯書中那些。

藝想師傳仔做嘅嘢喺佢哋石水渠街地下嘅展覧館都有得賣㗎,仲好平㗎添,如果你識咗我咁耐都仲未知藝想係乜,真係不能原諒呀。

Tuesday, August 18, 2020

泥漿

Junior Patient Diary
噼嚦噗咯在泥漿浴裏
Just left QM, the nurse is cute like a white haired doll, (not young but still can b cute)
so, you probably heard this many times, but even though i tried hard to be a good patient, but things (on blood test) just aren’t good enough. 
(Fact 1: Stress is REALLY bad for you) 
(Fact 2: Quantitatively we are not at a position we can just ignore, we need to address the problem) 

Sadly, I also can’t think of the reason why it's not good enough too, as compared to more stressful time in life, it shd have been much better now. 

But it’s ALWAYS like i presented them a challenge. (Not 一次半次,係次次)

Actually i feel bad for them too, no matter at private doc or public hospital i can feel that they really used their heart to think, read and ask, but there’s some missing puzzle, and i’m already using the best med tech support possible. 
I try (my best within my ability) to eat and exercise well, and not be too stressed, Obviously far from perfect, but perfection is not always a good thing too. 

Of course i can lose more weight, damn the body evaluation they said I'm overweight as an asian ._.  (a little, numerically) (me: but actually i am a fat pig -_-")
You know my friends are never ever convinced about this when I tell them!! 
Covid19 times just reli made exercise harder, suddenly went from swimming everyday to no swim 😭😭😭
💉💉💉makes you fatter,  but nurse today said medicine is more important than losing weight!!!
Sometimes i feel bad for them, cuz when they see other patients they might feel a little frustrated as many patients, never took the "normal advice" to stay healthy, but at least they can provide them a clear way forward on how to improve their health. 

But looking at me they might just feel “i wasn’t able to help her” ._.
Setting a shorter time frame is a good idea. 

At public hospital, you see a new doctor/nurse every single time, I mentioned briefly about.. what happened in the past, I can't believe I almost cried when trying to casually mention it, I didn't cry of course, but it was true difficult. And she suggested me to volunteer and help other patients! (it's always been one of my dreams!! But I was too scared to ask her to introduce me to) 

Note: I am not asking for advice, this is my junior patient diary, but if you want to help, you can exercise with me haha. 

On a more positive note, I was so happy chatting with Kar po this morning, the whole plans on our next collaboration were so exciting, as usual, collaborating with them last time was already so great, dream like! And the next part also feel extremely exciting, dropped by to LAP centre this morning too. 
Also got an invitation to draw another community map, drawing just makes me sooooo happy. 
另外,我之前咪給藝想嘅師傳仔寫咗信嘅,今日收到回覆呀,你唔好以為給他們寫信嘅programe 就係話寫就寫咁簡單,佢哋話「萬事起頭難🤪🤪同事要拍晒片教佢地影佢哋封信。但係佢一路都影唔到相嚟⋯ 又教佢哋點樣用WhatsApp傳文件。」她說超級佩服佢哋同事嘅耐性。
藝想嘅師傳仔雖然係「仔」但其實都係大人來的,主要都是智障或者自閉人士,但好多做了好多年陶瓷,高手到曾經在外國展出。去年畫灣仔的地圖就是幫他們的展覧畫喇。
不過他們現在都要困在家裹,好可憐呀。

Saturday, August 15, 2020

小狗

如果你有睇我嘅IG story 都知,過去一個星期在animal rescue side of my life 好像幾瘋狂,有好多古怪棄養個案,又有斷了腳骨的狗狗,有很可憐的貓貓因為舊主人延遲送往獸醫,當場死了,還發惡。有人棄養了一隻小狗BB,因為他天生腦創傷,可能活不了很久。

今天終於有些開心的事。
有隻好漂亮雪白的舖頭狗,因為店舖結業,狗狗將無處去,成日唐狗總是較難找家,想不到不夠一分鐘就找到一個暫託家庭。
又有一個舊的暫託家庭message 我,她曾經暫託過多隻狗,最後領養了其中一隻,她說她常常想起我,領養了那隻狗狗是在她們家中發生過最好的事之一。她丈夫本來因為她要暫託和領養而很不高興。但丈夫近日竟然跟朋友說起:「收養了這隻狗是這一年在他們身上發生過最愉快的事。」
我記起她當初做暫託家庭時其中一個我遇過問最多問題的family, 我差點放棄她。好彩無咋。我跟她聊起她的第一隻暫託狗odell,她說最想念她,我就即刻message 了她的領養人,嘩,她長大了好多,領養人竟然也說謝謝我們,狗狗跟小孩子很夾, are now best friends.
這個暫託家庭又去探了她另一隻以前暫託過的狗,後找到forever home, 那隻狗立刻就認得她們 "She recognized us immediately and she wouldn’t let go of sandeep & me. We all went for a walk and she would keep coming back and hugging us literally and making these noises that she used to make as a puppy. er moms were amazed!! Apparently she never made those noises before. It was just amazing to see how she recognized us"
After a crazy week, I can almost cry now. 

Swim Club 同學S 都算係個新朋友。

他爸媽有養狗,他自己都好想養,幾個星期前說若養的話,佢想要corgi, 我話現在shelter 都係乜嘢狗都有,但係我哋遇到嘅corgi statistically 都係十分之難搞,同埋個個都係想要corgi, 所以都好多人爭的。 依家centre 都有一隻,成日都多人問,但因為佢性格sensitive,/unpredictable, 要好有耐性,又會咬人,所以就一直未有人要。 我有跟他提過香港繁殖場都好殘忍,好差嘅都有,而且不是一個半個罕有嘅case, 相反,其實係成日都見到好多全身都係尿屎,皮膚病,跛腳,無牙,然後被遺棄嘅狗。佢就問係唔係要從外國嘅breeder 買比較好。 swim club P 同學都在場,佢之後就話「希望你有天說服到佢」 我時不時都會post 一啲我哋嘅new intake, 例如昨天post 了可憐斷了骨的Amir,所以今天見到呢毎個朋友佢就自己同我講話「我諗我應該搞唔掂一隻rescue 狗,因為就算以前養狗都係爸媽湊」我就話其實我哋charity 都有好多好多正正常常年輕可愛,乖巧嘅rescue 狗㗎~唔一定係咬人同埋斷腳,只係你睇我個ig 會見到呢啲㗎啫~ 其他都被秒速領養了。同埋你都諗住生仔,點會覺得自己湊得掂個仔但湊唔掂隻狗呢。
上周,有人突然要離開香港,想把她的暫託狗狗帶埋去,因為時間很急,七天後就飛,我哋已經好盡力幫她,但最後佢隻狗都未能同佢一齊飛,狗狗還是好弱,其實她本身該不是壞人,只係每次對話開始時,都會好𤷪,例如我哋一天內幫佢搞好了一些文件(在疫症期間真的不容易) 但要她親自去afcd 攞,土瓜環,司機唔識路,佢好嬲,問我做乜要send 佢一個人去啲咁山ka la 嘅地方,後來佢都知自己發惡唔啱嘅。(當時我諗,土瓜環不是全香港的中間咩) 其實成日咁𤷪有乜好呢? 佢又問我點解一早無話佢知隻狗狗身體弱,我話我有,佢話佢有我哋啲wahtsapp conversation, 我話我都有 -_-" 佢後來都知係佢錯。

事實上我是不相信報應,不信做好事會有好報的。
所以上面所提及的感動小事就當係reward 㗎喇。
Last but not least, at the same time, Ann sent me update of 薄扶林小貓飛吉斯,真係大難不死的小貓,長大成漂亮的孩子了. I feel like i can cry now

Wednesday, August 12, 2020

狼來

 

今天正修改智障人士生死教育那書,剛巧一個朋友在IG 說起她昨夜沒睡,這半年來,她一直照顧患末期癌症的爸爸,不時要出入醫院。

零晨四時,仍要醒着,因為爸爸不定時叫喊,她說,以往都是因為要換片而叫,不知多少個晚上,未可以一覺睡至天光,未睡足就要上班。近日更是每晚睡不足三小時,近日她的爸爸神智比之前亂,她說自己跟妹妹就好像在經歷可怕版的狼來了故事。

現在不只是幾次,而是一天二十四小時每隔一會就叫。有時叫得好慘好大聲,但又聽不清楚他在叫什麼。她們都心知是步入最後階段了,她說爸爸自己都控制不到。

我覺得她真的很厲害呢,這樣說好像好得罪,但也是千真萬確的事實,很多人願意不眠不休地去照顧也會哭一日弓日BB,但就不願意照顧曾經照顧自己嘅父母,好像好理所當然的事,但其實係十分罕有。

我就只曾經照顧病的小動物(和病的自己)今天看見一幅舊畫,很想念小Rosie, 她臨死前的八個月,每個月夜晚都會全身 epilepsy 一次,就算她不癲癇發作的夜晚,依然會很擔心,因為不知道什麼時候會發生。狗狗癲癇正式發作的時候,它們會失去知覺,摔倒,全身繃緊,也可能會大小便失禁或瘋狂流口水。

那幅畫是畫Rosie在寵物店,我總是覺得她在繁殖場已受這麼多苦了,應該可以享多點快樂時間。近日因為疫症,因為我在LAP 當foster coordinator, 天天都收到陌生人打電話來問foster 的問題,大家都係想要年輕細狗;亦間中有些人打來時其實是上一隻狗剛過身「所以不能再養老狗,不想再面對離別」雖然Rosie 比我認識嘅大部份LAP 狗都短命,又腳跛又無牙。雖然我想起她仍會好傷心,但我一點都無後悔沒有選一隻年輕點,健康點的狗,我每天都慶幸我們找到大家,雖然只是兩年半,但讓她過了快樂的兩年半。

正在照顧爸爸的朋友說:「我琴晚有想起你,想起你畫幫狗狗療傷。呀爸個pat pat 都因住院而損爛左...我要幫佢換片勤啲,同埋要幫佢處理佢pat pat 既爛促。」

佢咁辛苦仲想起我 -_-" 

也許外面也有好多像我這位朋友一樣的caretaker, 做caretaker 真的很不容易,啲人成日話他們都該有自己的support group,也是真的。Sa 姐姐就話:「面對這種生死的仗,心態好緊要,有戰友都好緊要」她朋友的丈夫幾年前因癌症離世,當時她曾經搬去她家住了一年!好厲害,但也一定made a huge difference. 

Wish we could do more for them. 

耐性

呢啲唔係trending stories, 但同樣係好重要.
不過相比做動物嘅議題/保育, 好多人眼中,呢啲可能真係minority 中嘅minority issues, 但其實他們都是完整的人/生命來的,每個都係獨特的。

在香港,智障人士亦面對老齡化的問題,試過有智障人士家人相繼離世,但從來無人跟他們解釋家人失蹤到那裹去,葬在那裹,覺得他們不懂。近年就有社工專做這方面的工作。

因為這個project 的出現,有些患末期癌症的智障病人能夠在臨離世前完成一些願望,有一位就希望跟以前的院友party, 唱K (他們都好愛表演唱歌)在那個party前,他一早畫好了幾十個蛋糕,因為最愛院舍中的生日會,他想在自己離開後,朋友仔都仍然可以每年收到他的生日蛋糕。

「有個別智障人士,不適被送到醫院後,因為是陌生地方,連上醫院病床都會驚(無人話佢知做D 咩) 公立醫院又無時間,就只能叫你回家。如果有好啲嘅預備,大多可以成功完成檢查。」回家後待下次再去急症室,可能已經太遲了。

「如果一次FAIL,醫生未必再寫紙做檢查!
近日,其中一個院友因胃痛,滿頭大汗,前晚送入了急症室,之後唔肯做X-RAY,醫生話冇事俾左胃藥送回舍,之後量生命表徵唔達標準,面色蒼白,精神也模糊,再入急症室,即時搶救,及即時做手術,現在又入了lCU。」

這個project 的出現,是希望多啲前期教育,最起碼可以增加治療的成功機會率。第三本就是關於自己面對end of life時的情況。

呢排除了畫香港龍窯的書的插畫外,又要拎返呢個project出嚟改。有啲人可能覺得好CLS點解改極仲做緊呢幾個project, 但我成日覺得做書係要有咁嘅耐性,我有時都會好𤷪㗎,九成身邊嘅人都係會話「點解你仲做緊呢個project」而我編輯就喺我同人哋面前話:「貓珊,你太心急」所以我同我編輯做「最後的告別」那本書做咗四年!!

好似你睇落唔會睇到我改咗好多張畫,因為好少嘅細節對佢哋嘅理解嚟講都係重要的。

我要俾多啲耐性改先得。

Tuesday, August 11, 2020

蘋果

今早整!個!social media 都係買報紙嘅香港人。有一六點去買,有人五點去買,有些報攤天都無光就賣晒。
大家都很傷心了。做別的工作也要辛苦地找力氣出來。

其實也不是什麼一覺醒來世界變了,因為早就變了,這一切都係預料之內,但發生時仍時那麼傷心。另外亦為有些人的醜陋而感到很傷心。

我覺得坊間嘅人總覺得蘋果嘅記者唔認真(even up till now, 有啲唔熟呢行嘅人都仲會咁諗)但我識嘅蘋果記者同攝記都好勁。

在去年的protest 時,他們很多都開了自己的專頁,記下前線的故事,很感人,都是與人相關的工作。剛剛見到其中一個說要把專頁關閉了。很傷心。她本來做副刊及人訪,但去年六月開始寫埋港聞,誰跟誰還在她的頭版出現呢。啲攝影記者都係好認真的,從來唔會話熱、大汗就影少一個spot. 

超級低氣壓,大家都抖不過氣來。

昨天也一口氣畫了很多幅畫,讀報紙的。

關於龍窯的泥土的。
智障人士生死教育project要做動畫,所以畫了很多小人和車給他們用。
還有給聖雅各藝想師傳仔寫了信。因為這班智障或自閉的陶藝高手,近日都困在家了,好可憐。

Sa姐姐說,就是想我們驚,感到無助,所以我們更加要有信心。

Saturday, August 8, 2020

走難

*Swim means Heart bursting with joy*
Fun facts I learnt from today, very useful for 走難, as world might collapse anytime. 

1 - Dog paddle - It was the first swimming stroke used by ancient humans, believed to have been learned by observing animals swim.Prehistoric cave paintings in Egypt show figures doing what appears to be the dog paddle
2 - The dog paddle has also been taught as a military swimming stroke when a silent stroke is needed - since neither arms or legs break the surface - ok i need it when 走難
3 - A old couple on a homemade boat suddenly appeared next to us, their boat were "made" by two standup paddle boards really - useful for 走難

Forced abstinence from swim for a week now. The last swim was at Turtle Cove Bay, the first day the beaches had to close, where stairs were all tightly wrapped by plastic tapes, and police patrols the sand to prevent people from gathering on the beach. (But people are allowed to gather at the restaurants drinking without masks along the beachside...) 
ANYWAY, we had to run our way into the water, or along the outside of the shark net, if you really want to swim, that's the only way, and seems like there are a decent number of people that are seriously looking to just have a serious swim. 

Beaches are still tightly wrapped, and completely deserted. We decided to go for the non-gazetted/non-government governed beaches. It was so refreshing, the water was clear all along the south side today. 

+ water clear
+ secluded like a private beach, just waiting for someone to open an illegal bar 
+ extremely happy doggie hopping into the water, joining us to swim, more like we joined him. 
+ swim club Porsche 
I didn't know (or maybe I knew) swimming can make me so happy, i wonder why that is. 

Thursday, August 6, 2020

疫症

因為疫症而不能見面的人,實在有很多很多。
其中包括我婆婆,在家中大家都叫她波女,她小時候在石龍生活,爸爸經營做鼓油相關的生意,她在十兄弟姊妹中排第二,在那個年代已有讀書,懂得寫字。有次我們倆一起到李鄭屋的泳池報名學游水,其他婆婆不懂得填表,她幫了她填,就一直成為朋友了。
公公在她四十歲左右就因肺癌離世了,那時第四個孩子(即是我舅父)才三歲,是第四個孩子才是兒子,大家口中的公公都是大好人,我媽媽和公公都沒有吸煙,但都有肺癌,該是遺傳的。(我媽媽幸運發現得早,康復後仍一直在醫院的癌症病房做探訪的義工工作,但現在亦因為疫症而暫停了)
他們以前住過九龍和大坑兩邊的木屋,試過火燭,看住火遠遠燒來,要把家中的東西一件一件搬往遠處的小山丘。後來又住過大坑的木屋,公公在清風街一間印刷廠工作,所以媽媽他們的出世紙上父親的職業那欄是"Printer" 好像epson printer 那樣 :P 
小時候,爸媽工作忙碌,我很多時都跟波女一起,但我在她房間會畫污糟啲牆,所以她常常說細我一年的表妹才是又乖又靚女,反而我會因為媽媽離開而大哭,總之她說我是十分之百厭啦。
那時她住藍田村,常常買砵仔糕回家。
她以前跟日本人工作,所以家中煮的餸都是幾十碟細細的,wide variety, 這樣子很好,我很喜歡。雖然她有一個very depressed side (you can't blame her really) , 但其實也是一個十分搞鬼的人,總的來說很斯文,很內向。
我媽媽幾姊妹讀完小學就出來工廠工作,儲到錢,就會backpack 幾個月,坐火車去新疆等,婆婆從來不擔心佢哋去咗邊。舊式的屋村,大家都開住門只有鐵閘和一塊布,偶然鄰居間會有罵戰。
我們用一塊拾來的木板放在床邊,做滑梯。
以前家中的貓小B 曾經把她的觀音打跌咗。
早前我曾經upload 過她畫的畫在ig story 個個都好鍾意,所以話,有時都唔一定要技巧好高才是好的啊。


Tuesday, August 4, 2020

廢墟

我昨天嘗試在我那部有十四萬張相的智能手機中找一張相。
怎麼可能。i agree with you. 怎麼可能有咁多相,仲要中間有兩年嘅相係唔見咗的。
結果當然係掛住睇第二啲相,完全分心了。
主要是以前返工的相,(因為大家每次都仲問 :P ) 以前我的工作是做舊建築修復的,當時是香港唯一一間專門做舊建築修復的"clinic" 現在很多外國/本地建築公司都會做。我們的客人有中式村落的屋主,也有政府的heritage building. 
我們的工作很像偵探,因為我們會把那座房子的所有raw history 都找出來,本地的、外國的archive, 報紙、信件,舊相、舊地圖、口述歷史、書、舊日記等。
也是因為我以前的工作,我才開似香港不同區的故事地圖(同埋成日諗點解我哋細個無讀真正嘅香港歷史,昨晚我們龍窯開了一個小會,carmen 就係講緊呢啲everyday life history才是我們普通人的故事。)
有啲相好靚,所以想同大家分享吓。
另外有啲新界屋主早年移民了到英國,入到間屋好像frozen in time, 啲衫仲掛喺度,好像當時left in a haste 咁。
另外,綜合我過去post 過呢啲舊工作相嘅記憶,個個都淨係對堆木櫈最有興趣 XD 

Monday, August 3, 2020

禁忌

雖然係咁講,但我仍然會好掛念Rosie, 她在訪問中也有出現。我覺得喵喵也很掛念她,畢竟Rosie在喵喵BB 時就來我們家了。近日在整理網頁 (https://www.studiomaoo.com/) came across 好多舊的東西包括訪問。
不是因為疫症,我們還會做很多Book talk和 Animal Rescue related 嘅talk, 去年LAP就在學校和公司做了七十個動物有關的talk - 講點解要領養,動物是從那裹來等等。
這是其中一個關於「最後的告別」那本繪本的訪問
【Change Maker】生死教育難啟齒?她用繪本打破死亡禁忌 ​ 隱形香港 撰文:陳嘉茵  香港繪本作者Connie,在創作關於死亡繪本《最後的告別》期間,聽到不少令人心酸的故事。她指出,每個人都一定會面對死亡,何不利用以死亡為題的繪本,打開討論之門,為隨時來襲的死亡,及早作出準備。
好多訪問都做好幾個鐘,講到最尾仲要拍片,仲要重覆講返同一句嘢幾次。我時不時覺得記者真係好辛苦。本來已經面對不同嘅陌生議題,然後又要趕deadline, 又要寫字,依家仲要拍片 :O 然後那篇嘢可能出一個星期(什至是一天)就無了....(現在尚算可以在網上重看)
另外又提醒我,我還在做三本跟智障人士解釋生病與死亡的書,只係做咗頭兩本還未做第三本,還是要快點去跑步後回來。
by the way 本書是木棉樹出的,所以賣得很便宜(只係$42) 因為他們一直希望所有孩子都能買到心愛的書,平日百幾蚊一本繪本對很多人來說實在太貴了。
好多地方都有得賣,突破書房、見山、誠品、三中X,什至HKTVMall : )
好想念rosie 她是好好的孩子。

Sunday, August 2, 2020

木船

昨天不是在談以前的船嗎。偶然在看船時came across 這件事,也夠奇怪。咁得意嘅事我差啲笑不出來.... 有餘暇做這種怪事也是很幸福的事對吧。
「1968年8月16日下午, 兩名派駐香港的福士汽車香港總代理「捷成車廠」的德國人,乘坐一輛改裝好的甲蟲 ( 封密車底和車頭行李箱,後置引擎加裝水上螺旋槳及尾舵) 橫渡了維多利亞港.  車尾牌上的「Hong Kong or Bust」是指他們在尖沙咀出發,可能會到達香港,又或沉沒大海. 結果他們成功從九龍藍烟囪貨倉碼頭駛至銅鑼灣吉列島登陸,全程共廿七分鐘。」
今早起床想起去年我們常常因為世界的事太歪曲,而要圍爐。現在因為social distancing的原故,爐也不太可以圍了。
又想起光子さん的廚房,我們在走路能及的魚市場買東西做天婦羅。
想起小村山後的森林。空氣清澈的日子。
偷偷話你知,我仲有好多old hong kong 船嘅相。為什麼船那麼fascinating.
包括punting, 我們以前說要做punter, 在river cam 賣雪糕。我哋話會好好賺的。

Friday, July 31, 2020

止渴

你是不是已經猜到我會寫這樣的一個post.
沒有得每朝游水對病人side of me 好痛苦。每天香港的新聞也令我們很痛苦。
雖然昨天三十幾度,雖然今天烏雲密布,但我還是出去跑個步吧,那樣子會較好,post 完就去。
一陣回來繼續畫練泥的步騷。
我見好多人都時常在IG story做別人的樹洞,可能現在的人都很需要。
這個夏天可能只能看住swimming poster 望梅止渴,在仍然開業的見山和我的etsy store 都有得買。
我一定要大大聲說出來。說出來之後可能會好一點。

Wednesday, July 29, 2020

玫瑰

Midnight in the city of Victoria
"Rounding the corner towards Hongkong will be seen some of the forts which have been planned on a scale of thoroughness little dreamed of to protect Hongkong in time of need. These are appropriately known as the Belcher forts. Green Island is picture worthy of any film. Here there is a lighthouse directing the course for incoming steamers and on top of its sugar-loaf fern-covered heights is a signalling station.The only inhabitant is the light-keeper and he is "King" of a territory the whole of which can be viewed from its summit. In front of the nearly violin shaped opal green sheet of water known as Pokfulam reservoir...“ (Information for travellers landing at Hong Kong, c.1921)
During first wave, we missed the pool. (But we found the sea)During third wave, sea swimming became illegal. (But we found the ceramics pipe)I was forced to exercise in my beautiful neighbourhood.It is a place of fascinating history, some houses here stood through the wars, they all have names - the ellenbud, alberose, or the bethanie chapel, the Stone Manor. Of course the old village of pokfulam, and the oldest reservoir of Hong Kong too.I spent a lot of time looking into the history of one of the houses in the past, when I was still working in architectural conservation.The house owners, used to be the manager of a silverware trading shop in Central.
they had 4 kids.There were more than one diaries that mentioned them, Maman Rosie in particular, and how they took in people at the house during second world war, also memories of the Japanese tying them up, then searched the house.
.I was only drawing the ceramics pipes for @hongkongdragonkiln yesterday, and I saw one this morning! I screamed.

Tuesday, July 28, 2020

莘堯

陳莘堯小姐,你究竟是一個什麼的怪人。
她就是那種抬頭望樹,枝椏間有一張鬼臉的小魔怪。那種,連屋企個厠所都係靚嘅嗰種人。
雖然她是小魔怪,但又年復一年,日復一日的在經營一家漂亮的小書店。你要知道在香港做書店是多困難的事,就算沒有什麼什麼惡法,本來做作者,出版社,小書店就是一件..... 怎麼說,傻事。
好多人不知道那間大樹下,白雪雪,兩層高的見山書店是有成二十個店長的,是一件超可愛嘅事。
好多人不知道,見山才是消量冠軍的書店,不是什麼商務誠品(不只我說㗎)
雖然蛇姐姐(就是以上所說那位陳小姐)會坐在地上吃叉雞飯,但也跟很多有名的人好好朋友,也會做好多很有趣,引人思考的讀書會,他們跟茶家的市集是最美麗的。
雖然她跟很多有名的大大師好熟,但對啲年青人都是同樣地深愛,用心的聆聽,不過,她不像媽媽那種vibe, 她像是一個中學嘅女同學,一齊去攪鬼那種。(ok, 只有我同佢一齊搗亂maybe)
他們也不是得個靚字那種小店,反而該說,他們暗中其實係超級熱愛文學那種,只不過湊巧也靚,去郊野公園野餐會帶白色桌布,會在大樹下吃大排檔喝香檳那種。
事實上蛇姐姐好像武俠小說裹的人,她身邊的人都是好可愛的,大概只有她是魔怪,maybe 還有我。完。
題外話,編輯梁先生,我哋找你一齊食日本菜很久了,等到現在兩人限聚令都出現了,你真的要我用一篇日文文章跟你交換一餐飯嗎?
P.P.S 其他店長,愛哭表哥及所有這裹認識的朋友,我們都愛你啊。
P.P.P.S 那有咁長氣嘅人 - 你還是不要跟我比拼扒樹。
沒有見山..... Everything would not have been the same you know 超級眼熱呀(通常其他人在這裹就會加一個粗口字)

大嶼

このウイルスがどのように終了するかは想像できない。特に貧しい国ではやめにくい。
伝えたいことが沢山ありますが、日本語が苦手なのでゆっくり返答している。ごめんなさい。みーちゃんはいつも私の日本語を訂正しますね:P
私は本当に日本語をもう一度学ぶ必要があります。

香港はとても天気がよく、暑いです。前、日本人は、時々外国人を歓迎しないと言ったことを覚えていますか?
香港の村でも時々起こります。 最近は小さな島まつりをやっていたい。 (瀬戸内海に似ていますが、実際は同じではない)
香港では、今年は、とても面白いアーと祭りが始めるよ。でも、もし10月も、コロナがあるは、始めるかどうか、わからないよ。瀬戸内海見たいのアート祭り。香港もたくさん綺麗小さい島がある。でも、政府はよくその島をdevelopしたい、とても悪いのプラン「明日大嶼」「明日のランタオビジョン」と銘打ちランタオ島の東側に1700ヘクタールの人工島を建設する構想が盛り込まれた環境破壊や莫大な投資への懸念を示した・香港が8.8兆円をかけて世界最大の人工島建設したい。そのところで、香港の若い方は、アーと祭りをスターした。とても小さいと、短いフェスタです、でもわたしも楽しみ。
島のひとつはとてもきれいです、祭りの規模が小さくて3日間だけなのに、地元の村は人が来るのを望んでいないそう。
私たちが一緒に行った書店思いますか。その本屋さんSharonととても良い友達になった。彼女はとても特別な人です。
コロナウイルスとニュースはどちらもクレイジーです。
国家安全法と中国の国家反逆罪、中国国外にいる外国人も対象にしている、実はとてもおかしい -_-"
多くの人が香港を離れたいと思っていますが、同時に、最後まで物事がどうなるかはわかりません。
絵本と木の実の美術館での新しい展示派なんですか。
友たちと、来年の越後妻有の提案をしているが、私たちを選ぶとは思いない(笑)。

Monday, July 27, 2020

芝麻

*It couldn't be only me that feel touched right" 
(English version of my previous post) 
(This is for self-record purpose, but ok, read till the film twist at the very end) 
I was a little sad, as I wasn't sure whether I was the only one on earth who feels excited about all this. 

My editor said good children book isn't meant to teach kids this and that, but to be able to stand shorter, at kids' height, and even for very difficult issues, be able to find an angle where they'd be interested in. 

I feel like it's the same for advocacy/art - how to touch people. 

Remember I mentioned the Inter-Island Festival that'd take place in October, it's connected by the "Inter-island ferry line" in Hong Kong, that ONLY goes between Mui Wo, Peng Chau, Sesame bay & Cheung Chau. 

The curator (three neighbours at Peng Chau) has always wanted to do a little festival around island life, he only knew about the inter island ferries after moving there, the ferries are older, the passengers were few, but he emphasised, that the view around this part of Hong Kong's sea, is extremely beautiful. 
And now haunted by all the "Lantau, Tomorrow" plans (the most absurd expensive, manmade islands on EARTH) (which nobody in HK supports) He said frankly, "seeing how brutal the way govt insist pushing this development plan, made him think it's time to act and start the festival" 

They received MANY proposals for the festival. (So proud!) 
So ytd, we went to 1 of the 4 sites together, took two ferry rides, visited the Buffalo auntie. 

She started rescuing buffalos, because people dumped her a three legged, wounded one to take care of, they said they'd support her, come back in a week, but they disappeared since then. So she had to learn from the scratch, from washing wound, to what to feed. Through this buffalo, she met many other buffalos. (and the decade long fight with AFCD vets LOL) 

I learnt that they have considered cancelling this site from the festival, i was SO SHOCKED that i almost cried. Among the four places, to me this is the most worthy one to share. 

It is beautiful in itself. 
The other three are already well-known. 
It has strong multifaceted history stories. 
Even the buffalo stories are worthy to share.
There used to be a refugee camp there. And now an abandoned prison.

Of course we don't want to turn it into a very touristy place, but if we never talk about this, then one day, this place might be erased from the map forever, nobody would notice.

About this project/festival, i immediately called one of my friend, who's supported a lot of animal rescue, farming, art, publishing projects in Hong Kong.

I was so excited, telling her that I would like to do something here at the three days festival, drawing the 22 buffalos, creating a local map with visitors; and selling vegan sesame ice cream under the tree.

And then, she told me......
"That little house, right next to the tree, was my grandpa's home, it still is owned by our family"
Buffalo auntie, is her real auntie.
Her grandpa used to be the village chief of this tiny village.
She had real fond memory of the place "Whenever we visited our grandpa, we would climb onto a stranded fishing boat, and pretend to be pirates, thinking back it's quite dangerous, or maybe it seemed bigger only cuz we were kids, we used to call it the haunted boat"

"My grandpa loveddd cats, he fed the cats with newly caught sea fish, but he eats canned fish himself"
On retrospect, perhaps sea fish was the cheaper option, back in those days, just put your hands into the water, and you get them.

And i thought, Hong Kong is so big, this village is so small perhaps only 10 people lives there now, and I only told 10 people about this. She's one of them, and she happened to be from this village. WHAT ARE THE CHANCES!

The now abandoned prison at this same site, used to be a closed-off refugee camp, between 1975 and 2000, a total of 223,302 Vietnamese asylum seekers passed through Hong Kong.
It’s a history that is complex, difficult and astonishingly overlooked.
Back then, with fewer countries accepting them as refugees, the HK govtadopted a policy it called “humane deterrence.” Starting in the summer of 1982, all new arrivals were placed in one of three closed camps. Ringed by barbed wire and patrolled by guards from Hong Kong’s prison service, these were essentially maximum-security penitentiaries, only their inmates were not convicted criminals, they were ordinary people, including families and children.

But it reminded me that once, the man next to me on the plane to Tokyo started talking to me, he is gwai lo but speaks fluent cantonese.
He originally intended to go to Beijing as exchange student at 1989, but all student visas were cancelled.
He ended up working for Vietnanese refugees in Hong Kong for UNHCR, he now lives in Lantau, maybe i shd reconnect with him.