缈缈

the realization of how little i know once again shocked me to the core. especially from this week on, all the topics are ones that i anticipate. it also makes me think, given that I am an Asian, with already some knowledge and experience of Japan/China, I still feel perplexed upon the readings, how would people who doesn't know the cultures feel?

Watched Hiroshima mon amour today : )

Trying to watch 平成狸合戦ぽんぽこfor class, which I have not watched before. Once again encountered people emailing me with the preconception of me being sick of reading critical text, and looking forward to graduate asap; reality is quite the contrary, though I feel extremely unknowledgeable it sometimes hurts my heart, but I also love everything i'm doing, the intellectual challenge, or else I won't even give a x to think... lol . I miss japan very much tho, esp onsen.

黄み

sunshine, crepe, eggnog, nothing beats that.

徐志摩曾說離美國後，仍一如草包，但住在劍橋時，每天忙著散步、划船、騎自轉車、抽煙、閒談、吃五點鐘茶、嚐油烤餅、看閒書，回國時發現自己原先只是一肚子顢頇。他在《吸煙與文化》 一文曾說：「我的眼是康橋教我睜的，我的求知欲是康橋給我撥動的，我的自我的意識是康橋給我胚胎的。」I wish I were in cam in 1922 for one reason - it must be less scary to cycle back then. need to bake a little sunshine crepe suzette cake as the day gets shorter. i seriously, desperately need to work now. i spent the evening - literally - listening to music... it could be so engaging even without words, without image

白莓

Every passion borders on the chaotic, but the collector's passion borders on the chaos of memories.
-- Walter Benjamin

Autumn is a great time to find beautiful plants, today, the little white berries/flowers that I am always curious in appear just in front of me on the pavement. brightened up my otherwise very gloomy day. They told me it is possibly a mistletoe! This is the first time I felt Xmas might be on its way. told by nature. I love it so much. What more can I say? How often do you lie to yourself without knowing?

朝霧

日曜。きれいな一日、朝からずっと晴れていだ、温かいので、川の隣に本を読んでいた。でも週末の街は大勢の人で溢れる、大嫌い。朝は本当に一日の中一番すばらしいと思う、霧の中から太陽が顔を出して、どこでも静かだ。

夜はちょっと変なレストランへ行った、でも新しい友達が会った、一緒にbubble teaを飲みに行くことにした : )　

おなかいっぱい、明日美味しい朝ご飯を作ろう。

今、癒しの音楽を聞きたい？もうそろそろ寝なくちゃ

深藍

first mulled wine of 2011

raspberry and fig in dark blue sky

why do we have to start a day with a song like that? why?

encountered so many books that I want to buy, beautiful rare copies too.....

午夜

University Library/UL is really a sight to visit, the little staircases, tiny corridors and that insanely abnormal lift lol. Doesn't seems to be something that exist in 21st century.

I managed to find somewhere that I really like in this strange library. It's cozy, the ceilings are low, books are small, with a window, and rarely anybody walk passes :P

Yesterday, I felt too tired to walk home, today, i felt impossible to walk home, with the many books I borrowed, all hardcover... ventured through a new path, walked through some pretty gardens, and saw a fat little white cat, almost surreal.

tired.

time for some self-criticism for my essay

提灯

I feel too tired to walk home.

done tonnes of walking and meeting people today, been to Uni Library, AMES library, met sijia, betts, alyona and erica, separately. went on bookshop crawl, while carrying 6+ books + laptop. it's so great to sit down in solitude now.

the sky was beautiful today, the coffee I made was great. but now I just feel tired. And after my serious reading-indulgence, it's once again time to revise my previous writing, and email my supervisor.

I came to an answer to my previous struggle.

I like the sofa, lighting and the old books here, I wanna have a nice home. Yeah, just finished email to supervisor!

I cannot let myself to write anything that is second-rate in my heart, and cannot let myself to just say it without materializing it anymore! edited/21:14, i started off feeling extremely tired and annoyed 3 hours ago, now feeling calm and happy, a nice way to spend the evening, on my own, reading, and finishing at least some work.